6 Feb 2025
Dream
I just went into the same dream again about being at the soccer team. We were all living in a big mansion. The mansion is part jungle gym for adults. I kept wanting to be wanted, but no one wanting me. Apparently I had left the soccer camp and came back, because I came across a group of girls who had my two toy kitties. I asked if I could take them back, because I noticed the girls had been playing with them. They didn’t say no, but they had really displeased expressions on their faces. Bitterly, I left the kitties and went on my way. I was trying to find a bathroom, and the one that I finally found had men smoking in it. I think I heard them laugh because I was searching for a bathroom? I kept on my search, and I came across my all boy team mates. I was happy to see them, and they seemed happy to see me. We got to this intimidating looking obstacle, it was giant wooden beams that plunged down deep into river or ocean waters. I think the goal was to run and jump, grabbing a log with your hands. I didn’t want to appear weak to my boy teammates, so I did a running jump and miraculously held onto wooden beams. The boys didn’t follow after me though, and then the beams turned (like a wheel) and I now had nowhere to jump to, and I was stuck. The only option I could see would be to let go and fall into the ocean, maybe be saved by a boat if anybody had one, or else I would most likely drown. I felt terrified and helpless. Then I woke up.
