3 Feb 2024
Dream
I had a dream that I was friends with twins that were prince's there names were Cody and Justin. I was really close with Cody and he took care of me and protected me but then one day Justin left saying he needed to go on a journey. Cody had confessed to me he liked me but I had told him no and he understood. This never changed the friendship - made it stonger. But a few years later Cody died, in my arms, he made me make a promise to him.
I tried to call Justin but he never answered me, different woman answered and threatened me, to leave him alone that he was their man. This hurt me a lot cause I liked him - a lot since we were children and everyone knew it.
He did eventually come home when the kingdom held a festival in honor of Cody.
Everyone was split up into teams, used faked names but we were agents Justin. After he found out he I was he summond me I to his room. Once I arrived to Justin's room I waiting on a couch for him to stop teasing the girl in his bed.
He then sat next to me, putting his arm around me and greater me friendly as if he didn't leave and everythi g was fine. I smiled and greated him with his title and bowed to him. He was taken back, I pulled me close to him. Once I smelled his colon it was hard for me to stay upset with him but I geld my ground. He pulled out his phone and played a game while holding me. Once I looked at his screan, It was the game Cody loved to play. Tears formed in my eyes and accidentally said it out load. Justin was surprised.
He tried to ask my questions about it but I didn't speak after that. Justin tried to ask me why I didn't talk to him, and I pushed away from him. Justin grabbed me, and held my face for I had to look at him. Tears in my eyes, daring to fall. He asked me what happened between me and Cody and I told him nothing. He asked me why I won't talk to him, let alone look at him and I told him to not worry about it. But then he got upset and asked why can't we talk like we used to and I snapped. Telling him how alone I felt holding his brothers died body in my arms. When I tired to call to talk to him I got nothing but death threats from his one nightstands who claimed to be his girlfriends. That when I was alone and at the the edge, when I almost ended it all I had to bring myself back by myself. I took my shirt off to reveal the scars. Justin let go of my face and pulled me I to a hug. We stayed like this for a while, then he asked me why I used a fake name during the event I explain to him that I made new friends, started a new life for myself and I used the name Cody used to call me. I pulled out my phone, my lock screen a picture of the twins. Above their pictures was text. Above Cody was I miss you cupcake and Above Justin was I love you always Sweetie. Justin say this and questioned her. Asking her why it said she loved him and not Cody. She was confused. And he continued saying he always thought she wanted someone like Cody over him. This made me angry and I slapped him telling him his an idiot that it was always him I loved.