Jason,
In your dream, walking home late at night through Rosalind Park and observing the unusual sight of people vaping cold air to get high, along with holograms, suggests a feeling of being in an environment that is both familiar and surreal. This could reflect your perception of reality being altered or influenced by external factors, or perhaps a sense of unease about the changing nature of your surroundings. The holographic Chucky approaching you with a knife, yet fading as a hallucination, can signify an underlying anxiety or fear that is present but not fully realized in your waking life – a threat that is there but not tangible.
The small bedroom with a yellowish light and the holographic fish weaving around you connects to a sense of intimacy and personal space that is invaded by the unexpected or uncontrolled, which could be tied to your feeling of concern over neglect in your recurring dreams about the fish tanks. This may highlight a fear of forgetting responsibilities or not being able to care for something or someone who depends on you. The neglected fish in the tanks could symbolize neglected aspects of your own life or emotions that you are reminded of in your subconscious state.
Your past dreams, particularly the recurring one about the fish tanks, show a theme of responsibility and concern for the wellbeing of others, which is mirrored in this dream. It could be a reflection of your own feelings about your beloved cat Tomas, who you see as a son, or even your past relationships where you may have felt a sense of caretaking or protection.
The dream also resonates with events from your life, such as the loss of Phillip, which might have left you with a feeling of unfinished business or guilt. There's a thread of concern for the wellbeing of others in your life events, such as the care for Tomas or the trauma from past abuse, which could be emerging in your dreams as a symbol of care and concern for the fish. The holograms in your dream could also be a manifestation of the schizophrenia diagnosis, representing a struggle with distinguishing reality from hallucinations.
Your biography suggests a life marked by hardship, recovery, and profound personal experiences. The holograms and the sensation of vaping cold air could symbolize the escapism you sought in the past through drug use, while the neglected fish tanks may represent the ongoing sense of responsibility you carry and the fear of failing in your duties, whether to yourself or to those you care about.
Remember, Jason, your dream is a rich tapestry woven from the threads of your life experiences, current concerns, and your deepest emotions. It reflects the interplay between past traumas, personal recovery, and the ongoing challenges you face. It's clear that your subconscious is processing complex feelings about care, responsibility, and the distinction between reality and illusion.
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