Homeless

22 Oct 2024

Dream

I dreamed I was in Las Vegas on a vacation- only this was not the real Las Vegas. It was the typical dreamscape that I consistently find myself in when I am having dreams of Las Vegas. Like all of the other dreamscapes of cities or places or areas in my dreams, it always stays the same and is very consistent, only it is not the same as the actual location in my waking life. It was another voyage or journey dream where I was able to access the birdseye map view of the earth (and it was flat) there was an aspect of this dream that related the the gang and homeless population in the area. At one point I was in a large ford explorer with a black man driving and some white guy came into their turf and you could feel the racial tension and turmoil and see everyone on edge.the guy was peaceful and trying to apologize for something but appeared intoxicated or drunk. He said he was going home to mow his lawn or do other “white guy” stuff. Then another white man headbutted the windshield of a car and knocked himself out and the driver just drove over him whole body and I was afraid he’d get injured but the vehicle was high up enough on the tires he just drove over him without injury. Upon arriving to the area we were visiting I ended up at yet another familiar and consistent dream scape that I visit often which was a mall/movie theatre/arcade area/and event center in a multi level complex that attaches to a hotel. Right when we get there a person comes out putting big trays of delicious looking cookies and pastries that were for sale. I couldn’t resist and i got one even though I was low on cash. The person I was traveling with got some blueberry scones. Then we watched a family group come up to the same booth, and purchase some things for the grandchild who was with them. It was a grandma and grandpa and a grandchild. The interaction between the grandchild and the grandma was very sweet and emotional and brought on tears and then I realized that it was a scam and these people were actors that were paid to get more business and make people wanna buy things and I was a bit upset. The clerk had written me out hand written Ticket amount of 50 something dollars my portion of it was supposed to be 20 or something like that. I know I had a $20 bill in my hand and then there is the rest of it. I tried to set the ticket andstuff and just walk away from it so I didn’t have to pay for it and then I noticed that there was several security teams that were trying to find people who are trying to get out of paying their ticket. I was informed that you couldn’t go back to the train station, which is another typical train station, which is like the BART system in the Bay Area. But is in the dreamscape version of the area that is consistently present in dreams that involve any sort of train or shuttle style transportation. They said people were ending up dead and that no one was solving the homicides. This is indicative of mafia style structure going on in the entertainment industry and districts of this dreamscape version of Las Vegas.

11 Oct 2024

Dream

I had dream of my deceased ex husband that he was beating me and angry and destroying my car with a hammer and killing a baby that I adopted by stabbing it and after h did all these horrible things he wanted me to forgive him and I told him I would not and there was no going back to being married I confronted him and he said if I didn’t take him back he would kill himself and he did he stabbed himself infront of his family and they still blamed me after they knew he beat me and abused me and killed my baby and destroyed my car I got the chance to run away and I did I went through crowds of people and I was homeless and all of the sudden people started donating money to me enough to stay in a hotel and buy a new phone because he also destroyed my phone so I couldn’t communicate and as I was on way to get to my destination 3 boys started following me and one of them tried to rob me and I told him No he would not rob me I had been through enough and I told him if he tried I would hurt him and he tried and stabbed him and kept running away .

7 Oct 2024

Dream

Last night I had a dream after I was watching the movie Agatha After Long. The particular episode I watched was about witches who were going down this path that they needed to face their fears. when I went to sleep the dream that I had took place at I was at an airport and I got to the security and I didn't have my boarding pass so I was trying to find pull up my boarding pass on my mobile phone but I couldn't find it and then I couldn't find my ID so I was looking for my ID and my boarding pass so I decided I needed to go back home to get my passport and I knew it would take it was only like a 30-minute train ride away to get to the airport and back in There was a subway train connected to the airport. I hopped on the subway. It was only supposed to take me like 10 minutes to my house and 10 minutes back so I should have been back to the airport in 20 minutes. However, the train never stopped. I asked the conductor why didn't the train stop and he said this train is going backwards and it's gonna take over an hour to get back to the airport which I was super nervous because I said I'm gonna miss my flight but there was no way for me to get off the train. Next thing you know it went pitch black and the scene changed and I was walking out of the subway. When I got out of the subway, I transitioned from a subway to walking out of the homeless shelter in my hometown of Kalamazoo, Michigan. When I was walking out of the homeless shelter, I was holding the hands of two children who were scared. There were a lot of homeless people, many of whom were on drugs and some people were even dead. And I was trying to guide the kids around the different bodies. I also saw one of the pastors who I know was with me as well. And he was saying, come on, we got to hurry up and get to this training. While holding the kids' hands and trying to navigate them and keep them calm from being scared, all of a sudden the scene changed again and I was at another building and I was trying to find my way in so I could take this training. I knew I needed to be there for a training. However, when I got in the building, nobody could answer me when I kept asking where the particular training was. Nobody knew where it was. The pastor and the kids that were with me were gone and I was trying to find them to see if perhaps they knew where I needed to be. I ran into a woman and she said, Hey, the place where you need to go is next door. Go over there and ask them when you get there, ask them for this particular information. I can't remember what it was, but she told me what to ask and she was like, you need to go to the building next door. When I walked outside to go next door, it was pitch black. As I was walking next door, I almost heard this voice saying to me, this is a dream, but it's not, pay attention. As I was walking to the next door building, I heard somebody say my name, Nicole. The voice kind of sounded familiar, but the voice also sounded distressed. They called my name again. When they called my name, they started coming towards me and then they fell and they were in so much distress. I instantly stopped what I was doing, I dropped everything and I ran to that person's aid and I started to help them. As I was helping the woman, it almost seemed as if she came out of the ground which was similar to something that happened in the episode but she was coming out of the ground and she was struggling and stressed and I was helping her, trying to keep her calm and then eventually her demeanor changed and she was more calm and she said, for helping me, here is a door and a door appeared out of nowhere like magic, almost like a magic wand and I heard a voice say that you can go through the door she said, you can go through the door, this is almost your reward for helping me and as I got ready to go towards the door, it closed really fast Almost as if she shut the door when she slammed the door her face completely changed and almost like a demonic But not really her face can change and she ripped off this mask and she said You are not supposed to go through that door you are actually supposed to go somewhere else you are distracted This was a distraction and I heard a voice say listen like this isn't a dream But this is like it's a dream, but it's not a dream Listen to the words she's saying she said like that door wasn't for you to go through But because you were helping someone else you thought this was a door that was presented to you But that actually wasn't the door you got distracted when you were trying to help this individual instead of Going next door to do what you need to do You stopped to help someone else and then you thought this this opportunity was for you. That wasn't for you so then I sat there and then I woke up

3 Oct 2024

Dream

Last night I dreamt that I was gardening at home, and a homeless man came to beg. He wasnt dangerous, but drunk. I decided to murder him 😳

10 Sep 2024

Dream

I was in an episode of The Real Housewives and this woman was giving birth. It was more like a horror movie - she reached her hand into her birthing canal to pull the baby out, and the baby was completely covered in red. Like blood, but also like the baby's skin was bright red. Then I was reading through comments on a porn video, and it was a lot of nonsense. I was with someone, and imploring them to use the "Control + Find" function to search for certain terms in porn comment sections so that they can determine if the video is worth watching. Then I was helping a friend move into their studio apartment. We were in San Francisco. I wanted to go walk around outside. Then I was homeless and wandering the streets of San Francisco with a curly haired woman (I also have curly hair). She didn't know where we could safely sleep - I told her we could sneak into a library that had unlocked doors. She kept pushing back on the idea - I told her she needed to chill, because when we got inside we would find more people like ourselves already in there. I told her people will hide in the library before it closes, so they can rest there overnight. The library was grand with tall white columns inside and outside the building. It was a classical style building. When we got inside, it turned out I was right. We found a number of people wandering the halls. At some point we ended up in a lounge-type area (open space, high glass windows looking outside) in the library where this young gay black dude was designing a piece of clothing. He was in the process of fitting it on a woman. The piece was a drapey, green velvet cape. I wanted to help fix some metallic buttons onto it. He wasn't sure if it would work well with how he envisioned the piece.

17 Aug 2024

Dream

I was like… in these big playground tunnels& I couldn’t see& someone came up behind me& grabbed me& kissed me on the neck& I didn’t know if I should like it or be scared cuz I didn’t know who it was& then we left the tunnels& went to this guys house& I had to stay cuz I was homeless. Then I ended up at an old high school friends house& I felt like she was being mean to me& there was other girls there, but she didn’t me there.

13 Aug 2024

Dream

This was a mashup of quite a few dreams with a nightmare. In the nightmare, is that I was in a homeless shelter setting, similar to my current situation in Derwood. There was…fire and shadows lurking in every corner. But I was facing them fine, I just needed to lie down to put my bags down…there was a kitchen and a bathroom rendered similarly to the ones in the childhood tv show, Courage the Cowardly Dog. The wallpaper was falling at the seams, and it seemed that there were sexual predators in many corners. I was burned into unconsciousness, and found myself with no face…a faceless figure was taunting and playing with me, like I was his food. He seemed no more than a child without supervision and too much internet. I ran and navigated so many times to no avail. He sent me into several different places with telekinetic almost superhuman strength. I was sent into the kitchen stove and cabinet with fish falling out….i landed with considerable impact, but was unharmed mostly. It did hurt, and the boy had remorse for a moment before I fell forward into a set of wooden cabinets. Then I was awake and on a trailer, looking out at the horizon…still at the shelter again. There was a symbol that recognized I was from independence now. One of their clients. They were buying me things and seemingly working with me until things turned south. The child from before ran up to me, grabbed me by the arm, using a lighter lit my entire head on fire. I screamed before I physically felt my neck break in dream and I awoke with my head in the same position. Unbroken. Shaken up, understandably, I rolled over to avoid sleeping on my back. Therefore was hit with another dream. This time of magical and metaphysical proportions. I was in a shopping mall…one of the big stores in the mall, with towering walls, merchandise, and many cataloguing or window shopping. I was exploring myself when I burst into casual song…a song I knew fluently…Havana? But when I started singing it, eyes were turned towards me by my beautiful song. I can’t recall why…but I was sliding around and dancing through isles like a musical. Eventually stumbling upon a child, and with a flick of my wrist, I transformed her into her fairy self, she was overjoyed and ran to get her mother. Her mother then came to request my prettiest sunrise, and I waved my hand across the sky and reflected a pink sky with a waking sun. She gasped at its beauty before I waved and a purple glittering veil appeared on her face, accompanied by silver steel armor. She felt empowered and emboldened. She sought her daughter and I gave her a signal to shoot if she needed anything. This would soon go haywire though as I heard screams in the distance, running toward them, I saw the physical embodiment of our entire solar system rotating around the sun in the sky, moving on its own like a shooting star. Seemingly to target me, the roof was ripped off and I started sprinting despite my health and limits. I found myself on the balcony first, reuniting the mother and daughter, then hopping down the layers of the building into a bedroom. Found my toxic sister but didn’t pay her any mind. I kept running out to the second balcony and down the stairs to a courtyard of children. But they weren’t there…to which I realized they were all ghostly children playing around in the green grass to revitalize themselves. Which I smiled and went into the building to find a surprise and… I don’t think I could ever see what it was…I woke up….and fell asleep to find myself running….only to awake again and find myself talking to my mother in my sleep…and heard my Case Worker talking to someone next to me upon waking. To which I bade her, “Hi.”

12 Aug 2024

Dream

I was writing a jingle and wrote an emotional lyric as I was bringing a box to a rundown storage area. I noticed the back door closing and it startled me. I opened the door to find two homeless men living in the area. I shouted “hey get out of here” and woke myself up.

29 Jul 2024

Dream

I don’t remember much of it, but there was…cyborg clones of 4 women. An Asian women who was running a masturbation or BDSM society kind of thing? Some were live streamed? Others weren’t. There were multiple times we were caught by a higher power or something similar…there was a cell…a submarine where we were trying to survive flooding…there was unrest…a difficult set of circumstances that caused me to start anew, and rock the boat throwing many overboard…4-3 people remained. Then there was…me waking up back in the BDSM club , with the Asian woman…they found me thinking to take me captive, but they knew who I was, apologized, and assisted me. Many of these clones were androids and cyborgs. When I explained my situation with the mail being missing or not received for 2 months, they both (2 cyborgs caring for me) seemed irritated and went to question who was running the homeless’s mail and why. Turned out they were being sent to the older room instead of the newer room number which is why I never got anything. There was a moment where I reached out to something glowing…it held the pieces of my heart. Crucial missing pieces that were meant for me to reclaim. To heal. To hold. My power. An embrace enveloped me. Making it difficult to awaken fully in reality. Was left with the feeling of needing to rest more.

25 Jul 2024

Dream

My dream started off in a noir setting as me as a female reporter investigating a mysterious creature that no one knew if it was a half man and half owl. Or it was all owl. She than ran into a homeless guy that had drawnings of the being in great detail from all his sightings. The dream then switched into my perspective but I was walking down the same street as the reporter with my fiancé(a woman I have never met before). We were meeting up with our wedding planner to see about a venue. My fiancé and the wedding planner were talking and the venue got booked before we could get it, which made her upset. While walking back, we got pulled up by a bean stalk saying congratulations but it also pulled up two other bystanders and kicked me out. We then ended up back at our apartment but I was dreaming about a parrot using its beak to scribe the glass to break in, I hit the glass and it flew upwards to the second story where it turned into a owl. The owl tried to do the same thing but I hit the glass again. No sound was made but it turned into a giant moth and broke through the glass like a bullet and I woke up in my dream. I explained all that to my fiance about my dream in the dream and she ran to the room where I said it happened and there was the parrot trying to do the same thing. She hit the glass and stopped it, then ran upstairs and there was the owl already inside. I then woke up to reality.

15 Jul 2024

Dream

I was trying to help a homeless kid. I bought him clothes even though I didn’t have a lot of money. When we were looking for something for him to wear, we couldn’t find any regular boy t-shirts. I wanted him to come live with me. He felt like a brother. My mom was hesitant because he was 13 and I am 22 so I would have a hard time taking care of him. And we would have had to sneak him onto the plane because I didn’t have enough money for his ticket.

15 Jul 2024

Dream

So this nightmare seem to take place when I was in high school. It seemed I was with a boyfriend that I obviously didn’t know very well or didn’t feel very safe with and we stopped at his friend’s house and we all went inside. him and his friends went into a bedroom And I noticed what I’m assuming is his friends little sister was getting ready to leave. She asked her mom for some money and the keys to the car and I thought that was going to be my way out of there. as she’s getting into the car, she has a couple friends with her, and I just jump into the backseat, I say please take me home. I will give you $10 and she says OK no problem. We start to drive away and we’re in the car for a little while and I noticed that we’re not heading towards my house. she asks me for my wallet and I just tried to give her the $10 and she starts laughing at me, she grabs my wallet out of my hands and takes all the money out of it and throws the wallet back at me and it lands on the floor. I just grab it and put it back into my purse. I’m trying to tell them the directions to my house, but they’re not listening, they are young. They’re out to have a good time and it seems like they’re out to mess with me. They end up going to some kind of drive-through amusement park. I don’t know how to explain it. but as we drive up, they pay the lady in the booth with the money from my wallet for us to drive through this Amusement park. I’m getting nervous because they are drinking and they are doing drugs and I know that I somehow someway have to get out of this car. I’m making the decision that as we are exiting the amusement park I’ll jump out at the ticket booth and just ask that lady to use the phone to call my parents to come and get me, And that’s exactly what I do. I jump out of the car and the kids just keep on driving and laughing as they go. I asked the lady to use her phone and she lets me into the ticket booth, but the phone is like nothing I’ve ever used before and she’s trying to explain it to me, how to dial the rotary phone but there’s no actual numbers on it and I’m begging her to please just put in the number please. I just wanna call my parents to come get me and she starts laughing very sinisterly and I know once again that I’m in trouble. That she also does not want to see me get home safely. so there is another car pulling up to this amusement park to go through it and she looks at me and she says. oh my God, it’s my boss and he’s not a good man we’ve got to run so I start running with her into some kind of fielded wooded area and I am following pretty close by her but then she gets a lead on me. I can see her circle back towards the ticket booth and in front of me I see that there is a camp of homeless men Around a fire and I feel like that might be even more trouble because it’s in a scary wooded area where there’s no other people. so I circle around and follow the girl back to the ticket booth area, which is at least on the street, even though it’s in the bad side of town. However, instead of following her to the ticket booth, I start running towards the downtown area. The car that had pulled up to the ticket booth prior, before we had started running from It, had two men in it. There was one guy talking to the girl at the ticket booth, and the other guy had his eyes on me, the guy at the ticket booth yells to his friend no she ain’t worth it, Leave her alone and let her go. when I get to the downtown area. It is dead. All the businesses are closed and I am scared. I have no idea how I’m gonna get home and then I’ll wake up.