Fireworks

18 Jul 2024

Dream

My dream started off in my house. I was with my sister and my late dog, Cooper. I was petting my dog while watching YouTube videos with my sister. At one part of the video, the youtuber pulls out a plushie that I have in my room. I tell my sister that I have that same plushie, but before she could answer, the youtuber said: “I know Helen.” I paused for a moment to make sure that I heard the youtuber correctly. “Did she just call me by my name?” I asked my sister. Once again, the youtuber replied, implying that she could hear me. She was mad at me for calling her a cringe, knock off version of Jojo Siwa. So, she found a way to talk through the screen to lure me into a trap. The two of us talked for a bit before she gave me directions to a fancy apartment building. I went up to the top floor and entered the room that the youtuber told me about. No one was there, so I sat on a couch and waited. Suddenly, Superman and Batman barged into the room. The two of them were fighting each other and were yelling about stuff. Their fight caused them to destroy the apartment. After witnessing the apartment getting torn to shreds, I called out to them and told them to stop. They stopped immediately and apologized to me. Then, Batman saw a comet outside the window. It wasn’t going to crash into Earth, but it was visible by Earth’s inhabitants. The comet made Superman sad for some reason. I didn’t listen to his complaints though because I was too mesmerized by the comet. It let off a blue glow and vaguely showed us distant galaxies. After the comet had passed, a bunch of fireworks went off. Batman asked what was going on and I told him that it was New Years Day. The three of us told each other “Happy New Year!” before I left the building. A little while later, I was at a park with my sister and my friends, when a reporter walked up to me. He wanted to ask me about what happened the night of the comet. I told him everything, but the story was all off. Instead of getting told to go to the apartment building by a youtuber, I told the reporter that the Grim Reaper was chasing me and that I ran inside for safety. I also told him that the two superheroes I ran into was actually a gay couple who both had guns. Even though my rendition of the story was obviously fake, Dream me believed it to be true. After the reporter got every detail of my fake story, he left and I went back to playing on the playground. Then, a bunch of random stuff happened. I ran into cartoon characters, built a person out of sand at the beach, witnessed my friends all prank each other, and went to a store. While I was at the store, I ran into my boyfriend. He told me about an important debate that was supposed to start soon. I asked what it was about, but my boyfriend didn’t know the answer. All he knew was that it was about cartoon characters. So, we decided to go the debate to see what was going on. Once we got there, we saw a bunch of cartoon characters everywhere. They were all arguing with Mr. Burns from The Simspons. Apparently, Mr. Burns put some new rule into place that would make him the sole inheritor of everyone’s money. Everyone was outraged, including me. So, I helped the cartoon characters remove the new rule and everything eventually went back to normal. After that, I got into my car with my family and drove home. Then I woke up and my dream ended.

3 Jun 2024

Dream

I’m at the college. There are fireworks. Go downtown in big truck. I call will and Vickie to see if Clellan and Gretchen are there. No. Will sounds sad. I go down. I see Gretchen and pick her up. Here she says. We stop at a limitless house in 11th street? Where dang is. Talking to Fancher. Haven’t seen her in so long. . She’s putting together a phone book. Should we look first fireworks? Getting dark. Start down street. Aunt Jeannine and Uncle Roy live in 4th. Should we go there? No . Jiri Finds decorated trees to follow. There is an event in a big building near second ave. We go in. Sit down. Don’t see any fireworks. But are doing some kind of train thing through the garden with each other. It is fun. We go back to fanchers. Someone almost hits me and then does hit Caroline Cummins huge van. Messing with insurance.

27 May 2024

Dream

I was touring a home to move into with my mom and a man. It was an open floor plan with an indoor pool and small gym on the third level. Me and the man decided to live there as roommates. It was really exciting. I woke up and went back to sleep and had a separate dream that i was a young asian woman. There was a competition going on and two men (one the class president and the other the class nobody) asked me to perform with them. We were staying at a house and it was raining. The house wasn't exactly finished but it was big. The class prez had brought fireworks, but they caught fire. The fire was contained in the paper bag. I threw it on the mattres and dumped a red bucket of water on it to put it out. But it wasn't enough water. I scrambled knew to find more. Used a measky amount of rain water dripping from the roof. And then the class president ended up dippintmg the water into a flooded spot of the unfinished part of the house and put out the fire. I don't know why I didn't think of it. Was it the same house from my other dream? I don't remember. There was a dog and we kept trying to convince him to stay in the other room, but he wouldn't. I don't know if it was sonic or luna. Maybr both? I knew the class president liked me but for some reason i chose to perform with the nobody instead. He was small and quiet with a round face and goatee. His eyes were pure and innocent. He wanted us to dance together. So we danced and i put my whole heart into it for him and we ended up winning the competition. The song we danced to was called canon gravity. The end was really intense and went "never ever be your canon gravity." And then had this huge drumbeat. I think when people saw that part the crowd went wild and that's why we won. But the class president was really devastated that i didn't choose him to perform with. He was a good dude. I don't really know why I went with the other guy. There was a third guy, too, but he wasn't really on my radar. We were just all in the competition. It wasn't clear whether i ended up starting a relationship with the nobody dancer boy. But he hugged me when we won and kissed me too so i think people assumed or suspected. We went to the next level of the competition and met schools from out of state (all of us went since we were finalists, me, the prez, the nobody and the third guy.) The three guys met three guys from the other school in the gym and heard how their school had rewarded them well for their performances. It really opened their eyes. Then i showed up and started teasing them about how they weren't obedient students and that's why they didn't get rewarded etc etc. I wonder why our school hadn't rewarded us more outside of the competition?

22 Apr 2024

Dream

My dream started off with my sister, my grandparents, and I all going to a fancy hotel. Once my grandpa pulled the car up to the front door, the hotel workers opened the door and led us inside while the valet parked the car. There were a bunch of fireworks going off as we entered the hotel. My sister started asking the workers a bunch of questions while they led us to our room. I could tell that the worker was annoyed, but he answered her questions anyway. Once we got to our room, we all went to sleep. When I woke up, I noticed that the hotel room had fused together with a small apartment complex. Now, there was a kitchen in the hotel room and the bathroom was bigger. As I looked around, I heard weird noises coming from inside the bathroom. I opened the door and saw two alien creatures in the bathtub. One was round and blue, while the other was slim and orange. Both of them were small. They were about the size of a small child. I freaked out when I saw them, but they told me not to worry. After gaining my trust, the blue alien said something in its native language, pulled a blue carrot out of nowhere and gave it to the orange alien, then faded away. After that, the orange alien told me that he needed help in order to get back to his home planet. I offered to help him, and suck him out of the hotel. Which was really easy, because nobody was in the hotel for some reason. After that, we made our way onto a boat. While we were sailing, I started seeing these dream-like visions about the boat sinking after crashing into another boat and everyone getting stranded. The orange alien told me not to worry about it and to just go to bed. So, I went to bed. Next thing I know, I’m at my house at 4 AM. I see my pillow and my blanket are on the downstairs couch, so I pick them up and head to my room upstairs. As I’m walking to my room, my dad, who had fallen asleep on the upstairs couch, wakes up and asks me what I’m doing. I tell him that I’m rearranging my bed, and that I needed to remove everything from it. After that, I go to my room. As I open the door however, I step back inside the hotel room from earlier. Then, the orange alien from earlier tells me that I need to hide him. So, I hide him in the bathroom. After that, my family enters the room. After some talking, we all hug each other and my parents hint at knowing about the orange alien. After that, they leave. Then, the orange alien comes out of the bathroom, tells me that he found a way home, hugs me, and leaves. (Then I wake up.)

5 Mar 2024

Dream

A weird water tank that pulls me into a cave. The cave is for punishment. A centipede made of snarling crocodile faces and human hands slithers across the cave entrance and the roof to snatch up all who roam in the waters. I escape and climb to the top. When I'm all out, civil war pops off all around me. It's me and fifty others with all sorts of automatic shotguns spraying the locals to pieces and setting free those trapped in other contraptions such as the water cave. It is a biological entity controlling these people. It is a bloodbath. Of course, when we start to succeed, it begs for its life through the mouths of all of its victims, all screaming the same cries for help in sync with each other. Blood, body parts, fireworks, it's a revolution against this parasite that tried its best to punish me in those crocodile centipede waters. We win. I win. Our planet is ours again and all who were being controlled were set free through death. The weirdest part was they were all dressed like colonizers, like high society 1800s wigs and dresses. I was still able to fly. I was resilient. Me and my army all smiled and rejoiced at this liberation.

26 Feb 2024

Dream

I dreamed that I was in a vehicle with someone, we were heading up a steep hill to go over a very, VERY tall bridge. But I had to roll up my window because sparks began flying everywhere, like fireworks going off. I can remember that those sparks really burned… I can remember the pain and screaming. Luckily I wasn’t driving. Just as we were about to be completely over the bridge, it started collapsing. We still, technically didn’t make it fully over the beidge. However, we didn’t hit the water. We had to sit still, in the vehicle, and wait for someone to come pull us out…

22 Feb 2024

Dream

Seeing a night sky full of stars and fireworks with my deceased father.

22 Feb 2024

Dream

I walked outside with the air full of excitement, it was the fourth of July, independence day, or maybe it was Christmas? It just felt good. I sat at a table full of familiar faces from foreign lands. And my dad was there. The fireworks started going off in the air. There were so many and so bright and so loud. I asked the table "is this your first time experiencing American celebrations ? " Laughing a little as I said it. They all nodded yes. I made the sentiment "for some reason, we have fireworks for everything" Just then, it seemed the fireworks got louder and more harsh. I looked up and saw a firework bright red in the shape of an American flag but the yellow fireworks behind it made it look like it was exploding. Something from the sky flew right onto our table. It had some sparks coming out the side. One of the foreign girls started to reach for it. My dad screamed "DONT TOUCH IT, IT WILL EXPLODE" but the girl continued to reach for it. When she touched it, nothing happened. It looked like a large electronic ravioli, but I don't remember what it was filled with. As she squished the middle my dad realized it was harmless but a part of me still felt uncomfortable with her messing with it. I just wanted to throw it away.

21 Feb 2024

Dream

I dreamt that I was dating a man, about my own age, and together we took my two youngest daughters out for New Year's Eve. It was my idea to sneak on board a cruise ship and enjoy the champagne, cocktails, oysters and other fine food for free. We managed it well, and had a fun night watching the fireworks. The children wanted to linger on the viewing deck after the other passengers had left, to eat some more of the fine food, because we never got the chance in daily life. So I let them. A crew member came in and asked me a question in another language, and I realised the ship must have been in port from another country. I smiled and said I didn't understand , but we were just visiting friends on the ship and would be leaving soon. He looked confused so I repeated myself. He just shrugged and left. Suddenly it was morning, the sun was up and I knew we had to get off the ship before the staff came in the clean. I hurried them towards where the gangway had been, only to discover it had been pulled away and the access door closed. I found a latch to open the access door and lower some smaller staff-stairs, which were without a railing and very unstable. As the access door opened and the stairs lowered, I sat on them and began to lower myself down one step at a time, telling the others to wait until I was at the bottom so I could hold the stairs firm and they could follow. Suddenly I realised that the reason the stairs were unstable was because we weren't on a ship, but on an airplane - and it had taken off and we were now miles above the ground, being taken to some other country. I hurried back up and hit a latch to retract the stairs and close the access door. Inside the plane still looked like a ship, and all the passengers were either in the dining room or in their cabins. All the staff were at meetings, and I was hurrying around trying to find someone who could help us, when I woke up.

12 Feb 2024

Dream

Going on the bus seeing a friend I haven’t seen in time then she left the bus I went upstairs I then get a phone call saying she died in her house along with her sister from a firework explosion

31 Jan 2024

Dream

The dream began with a group of women that looked like girls I possibly went to high school with. That feeling of their faces being familiar but they just don’t fit the person you are trying to remember. These women were glamorous and free-spirited and we were drinking and sitting in the hot tub outside of a large house with those glass walls that make it look open as hell. The dream changed to us running down a path as if we were following someone to a location. All of us ended up at some beach and I remember my boots getting ruined along the way. When we got there it was fun, we laughed and messed around but I got the feeling of being watched and there was someone taking photos of us in the water. This was the normal aspect in my opinion and only the beginning. I don’t think this shift in scenery was smooth, I must have had a brief moment of waking up because I was walking into some fancy hotel where I knew everyone like I came in every single day. The girl at the front desk talked to me like I was her best friend. A few times it would be like I just forgot what happened after I got to the front desk. The next time I walked inside I could barely get her attention because she was so busy. I offered to help and she showed me her calendar and apologized to me. Her grandma was supposedly out and she had to take over everything. I went through storage boxes for her? I pulled out a roll of 35mm camera film and lets just say… it was really fucking weird now. There were pictures on every single part of that film but I almost blacked out some of it if that makes sense? One was of me and my red hair that was on instagram at one point… another of them was blonde hair that was from me in 2008/2009 and I remember it clearly because I wore my hair in a specific way. It triggered a memory in my dream? (I have never had that happen…) The memory though, it felt like a whole other version of my life? I was myself, I remember my high school self but everyone with me was… off? I mentioned this type of thing before, its like I am trying to place them but they arent quite there… they are just similar… but I was at a park and I sat on this zebra statue and then a guy hoppe on and I was watching it from 3rd person. I spectated this dream and watched it like I knew it was me… Another one was my first year in high school because it looked like my yearbook photo… I was trying to process through it more but somehow I ruined the film. Now I reach the end and the part that was what I deemed a nightmare. I was in my childhood home… it was my bed and I had the curtains open and people were setting off fireworks in the yard and it was dangerously close to the house. I was already feeling so uncomfortable and that added to it. But then that guy… who was in the memory that jumped onto the statue with me sat down on my bed and was talking to me about the film and he was concerned about how crazy things were. Now there were people shooting fireworks out the windows and something caught on fire and also something happened at the back and they got killed and the guy disappeared and I woke up partially. I was in sleep paralysis at that point and trying to say help. I would fade in and out and the last little part I remember is hearing clearly when partially awake “no, you get back here.” I did come back and I couldn’t see the person again, but I also really dont remember what he said either. I just remember feeling like I didn’t have a way out. I stood at the top of a building and woke up.

23 Jan 2024

Dream

I was having a great time painting the scenery/landscape out the window in this very beautiful light room setup, there was beautiful flowers, very well kept bushes, pretty statues, benches, it looked so dreamy. My ex boyfriend steps in and asks me what I'm painting and I tell him I'm just painting the outside of the window, to which he smiles and says "That looks amazing, I'm proud of you for the work you've done in such a short amount of time" to which I smile back at him and say thank you. He asks me if I'm excited for our road trip and I respond "I'm honestly quite nervous of it, you and I just started being on better terms recently" to which he responds "I promise you there's no Ill will behind this, I actually want to patch things up" to which I respond "I know". There's a time skip of me having a phone call with my friend Fred who knows everything that my ex George has done to me and he isn't too enthusiastic about our trip or about me speaking to him again so he decided to go on the field trip too, and I'm perfectly okay with it. Time skips to me being anxious about being in my first flight, I've never been on a plane before but I'm sitting with both George, who's my ex and my friend Fred. George squeezes my hand and smiles at me and I calm down. The flight goes well and we arrive to our destination. For our trip we had gone to Santiago de Querétaro, which is located in Mexico. My father's mom and some of my uncles and aunts with their own families live there. We went to stay over at my grandmother's house for a couple of days and we loved it. There's a time skip to the next day and it's night time, we are looking at fireworks and a parade going by in front of our street which isn't something usual during that time of the year. In the distance, I notice one of the vans ahead starts to sink into the ground as the driver runs out dramatically and the vehicle disappears, it looked like the earth had just swallowed it, my friend Fred told me to run and we all ran trying to get away from that area. There was an earthquake nearby that cracked parts of the land and made sinkhole gaps, not all of them were too deep, a lot of people were saved and made it out alive while many others weren't as lucky, plenty of lives were lost and that made me distressed. All my family , Fred and my ex were safe. I asked myself why I made it, I didn't feel worthy of avoiding such faith. I don't have kids, I'm not smart, I'm not successful, I haven't had major achievements, I wasn't an outstanding citizen, I was easily discarded and replaceable. I spoke about this to a therapist in Mexico and she said "That's not true, you're more than enough. You just have to remember why you're here" then there's a random time skip to me laying in bed while my ex is getting dressed. We had slept in the same bed since I kept having nightmares and he had been comforting me. I turn to him and thank him for being there and he says "it's not a problem, it's difficult to not want to be here for you" and I ask why and he says "Because I still care about you" to which I ask "I thought you didn't, you've told me you didn't" and he said "I couldn't afford to, but I've healed. You should forgive yourself too" and then I ask him "Are you really willing to just forget everything that happened and all the trauma and start over from zero? When I asked you last time, you got mad and threatened to leave me stranded in the middle of nowhere at night in a parking lot and said you couldn't do that" to which he said "I don't want to remember those times, they hurt me and I do in fact have regrets from all the attempts I ignored from you to salvage what we had, that's why I'm willing to forget it all and forgive because I know that's exactly what you need" and then I told him "But aren't you sacrificing yourself and your needs and pretending to be someone you're not and feeling miserable?" To which he said "No, I just said that to make you feel guilty so you'd stop nagging me about it, I couldn't handle living the consequences of my actions so I just need d time away from it" he then tells me "You were never competing with anitger woman, you were competing with my childhood. You couldn't fix me because you are no match for my wounded inner child" to which I ask "But how is he doing?" And he says "He had closure, he's okay now" then I ask him if we could be intimate once more to which he asks "why do you want to be intimate with me? Is it because of the sexual pleasure?" And I say "no, those are the only few times you actually caress me, kiss me, hold me, look at me without me having to ask you to" he smiles and says "I get it, I'm not good with affection. I know you are in love with me but what you need right now is someone who's emotionally available and unfortunately, I'm not." I begin to tear up and he puts his hand over my head and gives me a tender headpat and says "I have to let you go, and you also have to let me go. It's okay to break your promise, I wouldn't want you to make me your last after how I treated you. Find someone that can give you what you deserved, not what I did" to which he just kind of disappears like sparking dust and fog in the room and becomes a bit of light out the window in this brightly white lit room. I hold my chest and the necklace he had given me which I had been holding in to also disappears in the same manner into the window light. I look out the window and remember I haven't finished my painting so I run to the art studio and begin to finish it to which it was a beautiful garden landscape out a window with a bunch of yellow and white roses around that had beautiful yellow and white butterflies which I had added gold leaf accents for decoration purposes. I really wanted it all to look like a magical painting. I submitted the painting to a contest and won a lot of money and began my career as an artist by drawing my emotions.