12 May 2024
Dream
A heavy rain, a squall, a monsoon even
in the evening
Iβm getting carried up and away by the violent gusts
Iβm with my family, my father, mother and my infantile younger brother to be exact
My fatherβs taking on a role of a stranger, and he truly does seem like heβs seeing the rest of us as one as we stay over at a middle aged coupleβs house
The host family, my younger brother and I get a bath in their house, the kind where youβd get in the tub together
My younger brother pees in the bathroom while everyone else is in there
We try to scoop out the pee water with the bath bucket and I have him just go away to the other room
Iβm stressing over how this would give the host family a bad impression while they try to take it lightly to no real avail
The scene changes and now Iβm flying over some traditional Japanese rural manor houses along some pristine flat river in the dusk
It looks to be some kind of a riverside town, think Kawagoe or Mito
Thereβs some random man, a snarky one accompanying my journey now
So now the current number is actually another group of strangers whoβs here to stay for their visit(like in murder mystery), myself, my younger brother and a looming, and unseen presence of my father
Due to the frustrations with his incontinence in the bath again my patience runs out
And I kill my younger brother on the first day of my stay here at this old decrepit but tasteful Japanese mansion by bashing his soft skull in and drowning him in the tub
Soon as the blood stains the waters I start scooping them out, carrying my brother who, for some reasons are starting to resemble my mother and are rapidly shrinking and drying up like a cadaver in my hands, in a cloth as I go out to the large slopy home garden area cut out of the wild mountains to bury him there
I come back with a dirt-stained baby doll wrapped around the blood-stained and washed orange towel in his place
I keep myself shut in the houseβs bedroom where Iβm assigned, being paranoid that theyβll find out as they while away in the dining hall