4 May 2025
Dream
I had a dream where I was after a movie of sorts and I went to a shop. I was looking around and I see a long metal pole with a pencil attached to the end of it. There was a button at the bottom of that pole that made the pencil go up and down so it looked like a professional artists device. It had a 90% on sale tag on it so I went to try it out and a shop assistant came out to me and said that he can give me a 5% discount if I buy it now. Well u see, while he said that I click the button and the device just moved the pencil up and down. So I tell this guy that I'll think abt it or whatever and I put it back where it was. Then he looks at me and asks me "you knew this was a scam right?". At then we get into an argument. I start yelling that he's scamming and I get kicked out of the shop. I feel good abt myself, like a part of me that expressed his feelings has emerged. No more pretending to be nice to everyone. But anyways, I come back to the shop which is now a sort of dining place I was invited to by a lot of girl. They were all wearing cosplay for some reason. Anyways, I saw my old friend Salem there and she asked me if she could leave cuz she was tired and I said "sure, girl!". Anyways I greeted all the other girls and I sat down and we talked. The thing is, I had thoughts like "I'm so awkward", "I should be more confident", "omg she's hot- oh wait I shouldn't think that, only creeps think that". I had fun... but I wasent enjoying it to the fullest. Tbh, the convo wasent even that bad, I just thought I was. Anyways at the end of the night there was just me and two girl left. The other 2 left without saying anything so I thought to myself "omg I'm so awkward". So I also left and not was dark outside. All alone, no friends made, no potential love interests found. This actually represents the party I had before I slept and had this dream. I talked to noone my age, I stayed at the "old people" table and I was super bored, and it's all because I took medications that made me sleepy and I didn't wanna do anything, yet my aunt pressures me to go to the other table with people my age. This night sucked. The dream sucked less but it did suck.