27 Sep 2025
Dream
I was at some event that felt like a thesis defense or presentation by Toni Morrison. The panel involved a “colorful mother” who might have been Isabel Allende, she had very unique readings of Morrison, and RuPaul, who was acting as a sensitivity reader for Morrison’s representation of a gay character. The room was drab and everyone except the “colorful mother” wore dark clothes. I also looked at a picture of Morrison as a woman in her thirties, serious and academic, and wondered how she lived her life in terms of food and mundane stuff. I imagined her making dinner for her sons. I imagined her family thinking that academia was the best and most inevitable place for her.
I went down a stairwell and a few others went up, and I saw my friend and classmate Alaina, she was on her way home from work and seemed stressed/unable to interact much. I wanted to offer her a ride home (as I’ve done before) but for some reason missed my chance. I ended up being behind her in my car while she rode her bike, it was nighttime, and there was another male biker between us, and no lights except that of my car on the dark road. Next I remember opening the car trunk and thinking about getting a bike rack, and dissembling a scooter into two parts in order to fit it into a metal net with large rings inside my truck. As I did this someone was hovering or watching me, at least one dark figure that seemed young and male, and maybe a second person. I felt like they were watching my stuff with intent to steal it or otherwise cause trouble for me, but nothing happened.
Next, I got out of a car in a sunny rustic Mediterranean landscape. My attire and demeanor matched the landscape, I felt bouncy and pretty and light. I left my phone in my car on purpose. The area became more city-like and I cut thru some streets and alleys (crossing three blocks not using sidewalk or crosswalk), when I saw a young white woman in grey sweats, a white T shirt, a snapback, and she had long brown hair. She seemed homeless and extremely frustrated. Our paths were incidentally crossing, and I avoided her as she seemed like she’d react if I got too close. I did need to loop back a bit on my route as I wanted to go back and get my phone, but she walked back my way a little and I got scared, so I identified a church steeple far away and reacted as if is meant to go that way all along and kept walking that way. I was still aware of the woman who was either following me or just on her way somewhere near me. I got to a really complex and dangerous intersection, and despite following the walk signs, cars would zip past whenever they wanted, and I got nearly hit several times. I gestured at the walk signs to emphasize I had right of way, but drivers still did what they wanted. I woke up randomly and 10 minutes later someone’s car crashed near my apartment. I hope they’re okay.
