25 Aug 2025
Dream
Dream living in a fancy mansion or castle my mom and a male actor who had a pretty face. I was reading about male actors last night from the 50s and 70s. I think that came from that. My mom was dressed as a nun at this mansion and I showed her this box of leaves that I’ve been eating from. And apparently they had some sort of drug toxicant, one that didn’t make me high, but I don’t know why even showing them to her and she told me that they were moldy and I was like oh I’ve already been eating them and she was like yeah there’s mold on this, like this is a kind of leaf that gets mold in Colorado and Colorado doesn’t have a lot of mold, but it grows on these leaves. It looks like little white spots on these dark green fuzzy leaves so she threw them away and she said the past like 4 to 6 days, you had a bad cold, sore throat, and your sister Ruby said that your breath stinks because you’ve been sick and these leaves are making it worse. So stop eating leaves and then the dream then I was putting on make up by my sister Ruby. I remember sitting in a big table and Marley was across from us doing something else but me and Ruby were next to each other doing make up and I change the lighting so I could see Better so I put on a big ceiling light. I sat down. I was doing light purple lipstick looks like I had full lashes on, but my eyelashes were full and I struggle to pin my hair back properly for a time. I couldn’t quite get the pins in place and my hair sort of falling over my forehead, and putting my make up on, my foundation was all disintegrated and clumpy and discolored, it looked like chocolate ice cream that had melted or something, and it was grainy, and when I put it on my fingers dry really quickly the texture of Play-Doh it’s super dry and not suitable. And I tried to use it anyway Ruby asked like why are you getting so dressed up? Are you getting all dressed up for my thing? she had some event going on or something I was like no I’m getting tea with Conrad later. I’m gonna hang out with friends later so that’s why I’m putting make up on. She seemed to ridicule or dislike this. Then the male actor being a room with three other men, they’re playing a game where they would stand up if the male actor did something egregious with a teenage girl, and he was sending the record straight because the rumors that he and this random teenage girl had sexual contact. This one came from a Short story I read yesterday. The male actor cleared up that they haven’t actually been involved, but there is still an underlying feeling that should the opportunity actually arise with her he would be interested.
I next remember being here a trunk of a truck had a wide bed kind of an old truck and Ruby told me it’s gonna be loud and then she banged some part of it Banged something like down to the truck, so I guess ready to drive and I was looking at the truck bed, nothing in there there were insects somewhere in, but I see sometimes in my apartment and I wasn’t afraid of any of them. This was looking and I think some of the leaves From like a storm in there, but otherwise it was quite empty.
it was a bit of an ambivalent dream or some anxiety about the upcoming school year cause today is my first day class or fall 2025 there’s a sense of Oddness and ambivalence, but nothing was scary and nothing was dark, but the elements were kind of strange and remember, at least the mansion in the scenery being quite quite beautiful and I also remember at one point, the male actor’s backpack was pinned to the ceiling, it was like a very nice expensive backpack that he hasn’t used very much I was considering taking it using it for school Nice green new backpack with orange and yellow and darker green decorations access and he also has a small bag maybe like a Fanny pouch on the ceiling. It was me remembering things I had read the day before and then my own thoughts about trunks and makeup Andy sister Ruby and what’s going on with this semester.
