14 Mar 2025
Dream
I had the most terrible dream. For some reason, I was in the car with my coworkers, and I had rushed to get there and something just didn’t feel right like I had forgotten something, and suddenly I realized I had left for work and somehow I had dashed out to run an errand and forgot to go back and pick up Roxxi and drop her off at school. And I was in the car with my coworkers and I just kept saying oh my God be a mom is so hard, so hard; and then I was apologizing for saying it in front of everybody and I was embarrassed. My boss was in the car. Somehow, in my mind, I had thought that I dropped her off, but then I knew something wasn’t right, and I kept thinking about it until I realized no wonder I couldn’t remember taking her to school, and it was because I had totally spaced out and gone straight to work. I said oh my God she’s still sitting at home waiting for me and I felt this crushing mom guilt.