20 Nov 2023
Dream
The dream was about two things, I don't remember which came first, #Mom's child or my fight with her, so #Mom was pregnant, and also my cat Jin, they both had their giving birth day the same day, #Jin put one black kitten, I was helping her, #Mom went to give birth when I was trying to help the kitten breath, when he could walk, I heard my aunts cheering on the second floor, I let #Jin and ran above, I could see my new sibling in #Mom's arms, he was so cute, with tiny eyes and very thick eyebrows, I carried him and he kept pushing me away with his legs, and crying, #Mom took him back, and went to her room, I heard #Dad saying Dr house from the tv show came, he took him to my room, I didn't have my hijab on so I took several things from mom, I looked very chiquΓ© I remember, I told myself I have to wear that when I go out, I went to see doctor house, he seemed very depressed, he told me he did something wrong and then went away, my sister #Nada came from outside, I told her #Mom and #Jin gave birth, she ran to see them, I took my laptop trying to open it, my sister came inside the room again and I realized the room really changed, our beds became sticked to each other and her bed was higher than mine, I didn't feel comfortable when I got into my bed and saw how close we're, #Dad came inside the room when I was just about to sleep, he gave me a new laptop and went out, I took the laptop trying to setup a new windows, I saw the new kitten playing, it wanted to get out, I opened the door, his father, Horus, a black cat named after the god of Egypt in Egyptian mythology, ran after him, they kept playing together violently, I took the kitten to my new sibling and both of them kept playing together, I realized the kitten had a lot of boobs, more than 8, and they were big as if he is breastfeeding, I didn't understand how that could be possible, I heard #Mom screaming, I ran to see what's wrong, she told me the baby is dead, I saw him, his head was broken and bleeding, his nose was bleeding too and eyes were nearly closed, I thanked god I didn't have a close relationship to #Mom or him so that I won't feel heartbroken, I kept thinking about how she may be feeling, #Dad said house meant to make the baby die as #Mom had already five children, I was wondering if what he did was right or wrong, I had to do an assignment but I was very tired, #Mom kept making fun of me and asking me why am I always tired and not like my teacher #Rahma who does all she has to do, I asked her to please stop, I kept weeping and telling her I'm handicapped, I have epilepsy and I can't just choose when I could do things, because my seizures make it hard to do a lot of things, I kept fighting with her, telling her she drowned me out, and that i have already told her that thousands of times and there is nothing that forces me to do it again, I left her and went back to my new kitten.
I really had a seizure in my sleep, I wonder if that has any relation to the dream.
