3 Aug 2025
Dream
A young man and an older man were planning to get married. It was the young man’s idea. Both were white and hadn’t been together very long. The younger one was tall, slender, and brunette, wearing a light yellow polo shirt and knee length jean shorts. The older man was heavy-set with a big belly and bald. The young man had an elaborate proposal that involved insulting the older man extensively before proposing. He made cruel comments about the man’s body, health, and appearance. At some point there was a big tree involved, with clear sap and crystal gems at its joints. I seemed to be watching these two men from this tree, as the older man got increasingly upset. The young man started to back out of plans once he realized the older man hated this. Emotionless, he just said “okay, okay,” and headed for his car. He did this instead of apologizing and leaving gracefully. He wasn’t that invested in the bald man to begin with. The bald man went off on him for being so disrespectful and making him feel ugly and undesirable, and he chased the young man out to his car on the street. The young man got in the car and tried to leave, but the older man attacked him I guess to take the car himself. The young man still got away, and as he drove off he or another passenger had an exposed erect penis. I think this whole storyline symbolized Simon and texting him recently, and some fears about being intellectually courageous and emotionally honest with him. He’s back in Germany now anyway and who knows what the future holds, but I’m wondering if my careful spiritual thoughts are too much for him or if I was wrong to be that way with him. Either way, I said what I said!
Back to the dream, I remember preparing a concert for my friend Remy, it was music she’d written on piano and for parts of her performance, the music accompanied a movie. In that, two women ran and danced in an excited way through a warehouse conveyer belt looking thing, they were clothed but when they lifted their shirts to show their exposed thongs, they got on a table with a pole and hooked their thongs on it such that they were back to back, and the table moved. They hopped off and continued dancing and running together. Part of this dream had Sydney Sweeney jiggling her breasts and pretending to be coy about it, and the audience (where me and Remy were) was mostly Chinese. I made a negative comment about Sydney showing off but kept looking at my phone. That was the other thing, when Remy started the concert, she played with pre-recordings of her own album. I picked a song from the middle that I liked and sat nearby on my phone. I looked at the music app as well as a planetary app, and generally was stepping aside for Remy to perform. She was performing shyly even though she knew what she was doing, it was just as if she wasn’t sure she wanted to do it. She disliked starting on the song I chose and asked me to change it, so I picked the third, which got intense and flashy quickly, so she wanted me to go to the first song and go through the album straight. I was fine to make these adjustments, though it didn’t look great to the audience, and kept sitting aside to look at my phone and not get too involved, or made too anxious, by the audience myself. I saw the planet Mars from my astrology app on my phone, and read different astrological notices.
Another part of the dream was meeting an unknown dog on the lawn of my childhood home. The dog was a medium-small, blondish, scruffy mutt with naturally blue-tinged fur. The dog was friendly but excitable, so it was hard to get at his collar to figure out his name or call his owners. I found out his name was Murphy and he could do a bunch of tricks which delighted me. I introduced him to some familiar dogs (my sister’s dog and my parents’ dog, but they didn’t look like these dogs in waking life), which he promptly chased towards the neighbor’s house. I yelled at him to stop, he was scaring the dogs even though he meant to be playful. He was very hard to contain. I don’t remember how this part of the dream ended and it was earlier than the proposal part of the dream.
