27 Sep 2024
Dream
There was a 'monthly check up' on how our new house was going by our realtor. I thought we cleaned our house immaculate but then the realtor took us to a side of the house I completely forgot about. It looked like a whole grocery store, with a checkout area and a gardening store area. This area was completely disorganized with products all over the floor and customers waiting to check out. I immediately help the customers check out as I remember that I told the realtor and my family that I wouldn't mind taking care of this area, and would love the responsibility. In reality, I was not prepared for it, and did not have the full energy to take care of all of it. The realtor said it wasn't as bad as she thought it would be, despite no one taking care of it. After the realtor left, I was deciding where to put everything. She gifted us a glass table, and even though it would fit perfectly in the middle of the yard, I was so scared that it would be broken by the weather. We wouldn't have anything to cover it, so it just sat in a corner while my boyfriend and I debated what would go there instead. He said it would be fine and to just put the table out there, but I knew from experience that it would break and that I wouldn't want the gift to be ruined before we got to even use it. Also I went to the gardening area, and I went to happily work on that, when all of a sudden cockroaches, spiders, and ants all got into my hair. I felt gross, dirty, and with no energy left to continue, I gave up. I was hard on myself for taking on too much responsibility, but I honestly thought I could do it all.