Dream About Unexpected Family Struggles

I was a little girl I grew up and started to have sex. I had a son and a daughter and my mom was happy but as soon as I had sex the third time I had 10 babies back to back this upset my mom and my 2-month-old son cause he started being bad and his first words were his own name and I asked him isn't that reprimanded the kid and he said I don't care and my mother turned extremely hateful a support system I had turned so bad she took one of my kids and kicked me out. As time passed and everybody grew up I was taking care of my kids. My daughter was in college but my son was struggling and when I tried to suggest something to him he would snap. So I packed my stuff and moved out and let my baby's father move in and I left. After I left my son was telling his father how I was so horrible and it hurt me so bad so I stopped planning his college fund and spent it on myself. This upset my son that he no longer had access to my account and cussed me out so I told him I was disowning him for all the mental abuse he put me through. this started a heated argument between him and his father and I lashed out entirely telling them they were doing too much and to find a job because I was done being a rebound to start off of and hung up my phone blocked them and now I'm enjoying my vacation at Cancun.