Sandra, your dream begins with a poignant image of your mother, who passed away last year, appearing naked in the kitchen, moving in circles. This imagery is deeply symbolic. The kitchen, often seen as the heart of the home, represents nourishment and comfort, yet your mother appears vulnerable and in need of help. This could reflect your feelings of helplessness and unresolved emotions regarding her passing. The sense of her being in danger 'on the other side' might be a manifestation of your anxiety and grief, projecting a fear that she is not at peace.
As the dream transitions, you find yourself looking for something, which leads you to your sisters. One sister is busy, and the other is multitasking, vacuuming with one hand while holding what seems like an eagle or her granddaughter in the other. This part of the dream might suggest feelings of responsibility and the need to manage multiple aspects of your life simultaneously, possibly mirroring your own experiences as a mother and the balancing act you perform daily. The eagle could symbolize freedom or a higher perspective, hinting at your desire for liberation from current stresses.
The recurring theme of sleep paralysis in your dream indicates a feeling of being trapped or immobilized in waking life. The physical sensations of paralysis and the struggle you experience might echo your real-life battles with stress and anxiety. The search for the lady who could explain the meaning of your condition suggests a quest for understanding and clarity about your mental and emotional state. Her vague explanation and reference to the Bible might indicate a need for spiritual or deeper existential answers to what you are experiencing.
The setting shifts dramatically to a cliff and bleachers, juxtaposing danger and safety. The cliff represents the precipice of your emotions and the potential for falling into despair, while the bleachers symbolize a place of observation and reflection. The ocean below, spelling out 'Jesus' in the foam, introduces a powerful spiritual element, suggesting peace and divine presence in the midst of your turmoil. The children and older women walking through this scene could represent innocence and wisdom, guiding you towards a sense of peace and acceptance.
Finally, the elusive word that starts with 'E' and ends with 'N' represents a piece of the puzzle you feel is missing. It could symbolize an unresolved issue or a solution that feels just out of reach. This dream vividly paints a picture of your inner struggles, combining elements of loss, family dynamics, spiritual searching, and the quest for understanding in the face of anxiety and grief. It is a complex tapestry of your subconscious working through profound emotions and seeking resolution.