Dream About Abusive Ex Attack

I was home and my mom randomly showed up to tell me that my abusive ex R was coming. When I go down the stairs, I see him with a bag and he walks through my dad’s apartment door. My dad comes out and walks towards me. I run outside and my dad tries to tell me to wait but i push him aside and run to the apartment. Before going into the apartment i call the police and start recording on my phone. I go in and R is sitting on the bed. I start yelling “you have to leave, who do you think you are?! How dare you, get out!”. He laughs, stands up and starts walking towards me, saying he lives here and I need to calm down. I yell at him again telling him to leave, this is my dad’s apartment not yours. I call him a bum and tell him to get out. He get really angry when I call him a bum and starts to come at me. He grabs my arm and tries to hold me down, I pull away and hit him. He hits me back and we start fighting, I was punching him and I throwing him wall to wall. I was winning the fight until I tripped and lost my balance. He takes advantage of this and throws me on the ground and gets on top of me, saying that I’m not going anywhere and that I’m his. He starts to undo my pants and puts his hand under my shirt. I grab a pole and hit him with it, push him off of me and run out the door. As I get out the door, the police arrive. I scream for them to help me and R is following me, he sees the police and stops. They see me bloodied, clothes torn and they go after R. They arrest him, put him in the car and take him away. Suddenly im in a house with 2 dogs and a car. I bring the dogs out and when I come back in R is back. He is cooking and says hey babe. I get angry, say I’m not your babe and tell him to get out. He laughs and says he’s not going anywhere and tells me to sit down. I start yelling at him and throwing his stuff outside. I go back to tell him to leave but he’s not in the kitchen anymore. I go through the house yelling for him to get out of my house. I find him in the bathroom, I kick open the door and scream at him to get out. He stands up, gets in my face and says he’s not going anywhere. He pushes past me and goes downstairs, I follow him and continue telling him to stop and get out. He ignores me, grabs my keys and says that he’ll be back and leaves. I run after him to get my keys back but he’s gone. I look at my car and it’s been vandalized, it had a large dent from being hit with a car, the windshield window was smashed and the something was poured into the gas tank. As I’m looking at it, I’m tackled and pinned down by his friend. R shows up and tells the friend to be careful with me because I’m slippery and will get away. The friend laughs and puts a belt around my throat like a leash while I’m thrashing around trying to get him off of me. He pulls the belt choking me and kneels on my stomach, making me stop moving and scream. He rips my shirt open, undoes my pants and pulls them down. He starts to molest me until R comes back. R comes over to me, his friend gets up and hands him the belt. I catch my breath and I’m frozen in fear. R takes the belt and gets on top of me, he says that I’m not getting away again and that I’m his. I don’t say anything and he rapes me. At some point I get a hold of the end of the belt around my neck. I kick R off of me and run away. His friend starts to run after me, he gets close and reaches for my hair but I dodge him and run down a random street. As I’m running, I see 2 police cars and I scream for help, the cars turn on and drive around the corner. I feel hopeless but I keep running. His friend is behind me, I barely get away from him and go down another street. I keep running and I end up back at my house. I don’t see anyone and keep running to it but then I’m knocked over and I’m pinned down again. It was R, he hits me in the face and knees my stomach. I’m so tired that I can’t move or scream anymore. He keeps hitting my stomach and I spit up blood. Then he rape me again, so violently that I feel my insides tear and rip. As he’s doing it I’m crying for him to stop and begging for help. He laughs and covers my mouth with his hand. I begin to pass out but then the police come and shoot him multiple times. He collapses on top of me, I feel him stop breathing and I feel his heart stop beating. I’m sobbing and screaming for help. The cops pull him off and out of me and start attending to me. They help me stand up but when I get on my feet I start gushing blood from my vagina and rectum because of the assault from R. I pass out and wake up in the hospital. I look down and I have an ostomy bag because R tore my colon and intestines. I continue looking at my stomach and I have a big cut because they had to do a hysterectomy and stop the internal bleeding from my abdominal organs being ruptured. I sit up and try to get up but when I get on my feet I fall. A nurse comes in and helps me up. I ask her what happened and she gently lays me down on the bed. She explains that because of the assault I had to have multiple organs removed and got sepsis. She tells me that I’m safe and I have to stay in the hospital until I heal.