Idol

22 Aug 2024

Dream

It was school break time. We were on a learning journey. Me and my friend Angelique were at a mall near the school. If I’m right it felt and looked like break time. We bought bungeoppang and We were hanging out, When we saw hyunjin. It felt like he was someone I knew so I think he was somehow related to me like my cousin's brother. He was an idol of a group called Stray Kids. We saw him and wanted to say hi. But since he was an idol he wasn’t allowed to meet us. We followed hyunjin and saw he was queuing up at a bubble tea shop. We then decided to chase him. He saw us and looked shocked. I yelled at his name. Hyunjin-ah! He immediately ran away because he was famous and he couldn’t get attention. We tried to run after him but he was too fast and went into the MRT or subway. Then we gave up and walked back. While walking back we saw I.N. who was also a member of Stray Kids and my cousin's brother walking. We chased him as well. He was equally as scared and ran into the subway as well. I’m guessing that mall is jewel because it’s right outside the airport. After that Angelique and I decided to get back to class. Our field trip classroom was an air-conditioned room and it was cozy. We had to sit and the floor there were tables but we had to sit outside them. I was seated at the back so I could do whatever I wanted. Angelique was across me so we couldn’t talk. When we all arrived she said. “Class I think ur classmates have scared some people.” I immediately knew it was me and Angelique. But for some reason only I got scolded. “She scolded me very very harshly. She asked me to stand up and embarrassed me in front of the whole class. After an hour of scolding me, she asked me to sit down. I felt so guilty and sat at the very back which was my seat. Then suddenly someone opened the door. It was hyunjin and I.N…. Since I was at the back I could easily access the table and immediately moved and sat under the table once I saw their face. I was so scared they were going to scold me. Since they are my cousin's brothers. Hyunjin and I were understanding and they knew it was just a joke and they understood why I did what I did. Hyunjin smiled while walking in. He was wearing Nike shoes. he stuck and touched me with his foot under the table. He smirked, we were always like enemies but caring when we needed to be. I was so guilty embareasedand sad. Why did I do that to Hyunjin and I.N? Am I that stupid? Hyunjin and I.N. stood there but since I was under the table I could only see their legs. The teacher continued to scold me for another hour. I felt more upset as the class stared at me. Hyunjin and I.n were smirking the entire time because they knew I deserved it after what I did but they thought the scolding was a bit too much. Then the teacher said “Okay we will give you some time alone.” everyone left except Hyunjin and I.N. I was still under the table. I was so scared I started to tear up. I didn't dare to come out. Hyunjin and I.N. just stood there waiting for me to get out. Hyunjin said “Come out now.” with a stern and determined voice. Not angry just a voice to make an emphasis. I refused to come out. They said it one more time. I had no choice but to come out. Once I came out I started crying. “I'm really sorry oppa…” I said scared, fearful, and upset. They told me annoyed “It's fine dw”. hyunjin asked I.n to go outside because I.N. was younger than him and he could handle the situation better. Only me and hyunjin were left in the room. Hyunjin said “I said stop crying! Why are you still crying?” Hyunjin is not really the type to comfort people. He likes to scare them so they stop crying. But he came to me and rubbed my back. He wiped away my tears. He said “I told u it's fine. Don't worry! I'm not angry at you. I understand why you did that and honestly I don't mind it. You helped me work out, haha. That teacher scolded everyone harshly.” While scolding me the teacher pushed me down so I got a cut on my leg Hyunjin asked me what it was. I told him it was a cut. He put a bandage on the cut and told me it was okay. I went out and met I.N. He crouched down and told me “It's okay!” and pinched my cheek. After that, I became a bit happier and we all went home.

4 Aug 2024

Dream

April brought me to the home of a Hindu family, they were celebrating this festival where 5 significant deities in the pantheon connected with different areas of life were honored. I had told April I was curious and wanted to see. The family had their home open to anyone who was interested in participating, so I had come. April did not come in with me. I did not show her but I had an idol I brought with me as well - a god of fire. It was tall (about the height of my waist) and narrow. I went it the house and paid my respects to the first two deities. They were situated in different rooms around the house. I think April may have thought this was going to go more quickly than it did - although I had not been long in there. Having not gotten too far I stepped back onto the porch to dissuade her from coming in - she would misunderstand what I was doing and call it idolatry. I also concealed the statue I had brought with me. April asked if I had seen everything yet. I told her I had not, but that I wouldn’t be long. She went back to the car and I stepped back into the house. What I was doing was not worship, I was simply paying my respects. These gods had brought the people of India a long way that was honorable. I got to the third which corresponded to the statue I had brought - the god of fire. I cannot remember I think something happened. Remember seeing the family in their peaceful home amidst their gods. I believe the dream ended before I could finish my rounds. I have no reason to suspect I did not.

30 Jul 2024

Dream

today I dreamed that I was waiting for the idol I know Jungkook as he would come to a school and talk or sing and I was sitting at the front even it wasn't my place but wanted to see him at the front as to be better I felt it was an evil thing but didn't care but something happened is that he didn't came but another man came who was in real life dead and I thought maybe that happened because I sat on somebody's chair not mine and he came and talk and I saw my father by his side their and I saw I was taking a video recording this event but when he ended I was waiting for Jungkook to appear cause I thought that he is late

23 Jul 2024

Dream

Dreamed of the idol Jungkook

23 Jul 2024

Dream

I dreamed that I was at home me and my brother and my mum and we were standing Infront of an idol he was sitting on our couch and he was talking and while he was talking my mouth was down because I couldn't believe that he is Infront of me in real life and then the idol said why are you looking at me like that and he was laughing and we laughed too then my mum and my brother went away and the idol said sit beside me and I sitted and he was opening a laptop and it had things about him and other things that I don't remember

30 Jun 2024

Dream

i had a dream that i was at dance rehearsal and that billie eilish was there (she’s my idol). and i gave her a very long hug and then we went to a theater or something like that

25 Jun 2024

Dream

I’m watching AND talking/experiencing this dream from the perspectives of two Japanese gyaru-kei YouTubers and a few male idol group members attending a TV show program They’re having a talkshow about what the celebrities and the semi-celebrities like YouTubers go through as daily occurences and such Im seeing the women talk about how they make cute foods and basically aestheticize the aspects of their mundane life and such for the content Once such example being how they make ‘kyara-ben(lunch boxes decorated with foods and tools that uses characters and their motifs associated with the kawaii cultures. They’re characterized by how ‘mini’ and ‘cutesy’ everything is; mini tomatoes, bite-sized egg omlettes or mini sausages cut to look like octopuses…)’ for their videos and how they have to wake up at 4 in the morning for it The male idols find that, in terms of how their private life and such is made into a content/commodity to be sold as ‘contents’, they can relate The YouTubers are then talking about basically the whole sugar daddy-esque nature of the way the industry’s female talents get ahead in their career and achieve media prominence while the male idols talk about the rigid ageist structures of the senpai-kouhai system in their agency involves those female idols as a medium of sexual currency(e.g. one member talks about how it’s almost like a rite of passage when the senpai idols ‘buy’ a female talent/creators’ time and have the koujai(younger) idols do the same and make them practice the whole procedures and such) One of the members laughingly talked about how a younger male idol, under the custom and the recommendation of his senpai(likely to have the younger one prove his manliness or whatever), tried ‘buying’/contacting a newly debuted popular female idol for their time and compnionship but ended up getting ‘tricked’/‘catfished’ into buying a money grab ‘product’ that is basically an underground idol disguising as the popular one (Ew. To the men. The way they worded it like it’s the woman’s fault for tricking them. When what they’re doing to begin with is monstrously underhanded and dehumanizing to the women.) Both are equally nasty in character but I find myself being more on the side of the female YouTubers because it seems like without the filter of their machiavellianism and narcissistic lenses the women are just using what grants them the best advantage(their youth, sexuality, body) because they don’t really have much other choices that gets taken ‘seriously’ enough by the people of authority, prominence and influence in the VIP world while the male idols are basically being complicit in the upholding of the chauvinistic, male-only society/club-like structure of the whole power dynamics in the industry

20 Jun 2024

Dream

So in the dream i was actually crying like tears i was also crying in real life . There was this Idol that i loved and i finally got to meet her , she was this athlete. I talked with her in her room but then for some reason her coach told me to get out and i was really sad cause for the first time in forever i felt at peace and she made me really comfortable , and her coach wanted to kick me out and the minute her coach left i started crying to the idol and she hugged me and u felt really good that she hugged me cause i havent if not never got comforte like that whenever i had a break down , and this breakdown was actually happen in real life as in the dream i could sort of feel tears actually dropping in real life and when i woke up my eyes were red and swollen

4 Jun 2024

Dream

I dreamed about my idol giving a concert and hugging me

20 Apr 2024

Dream

My family and I were on a yacht, everyone was happy and having fun especially myself because I saw Mingyu the Idol on the other side. Of course I came over and we had a talk. When I came back to where my family was suddenly there were sharks. The next thing, I saw myself on the surf board. I was showing off even if there were sharks. I saw my mom and little sister, they were at the shore and they reprimand me. I was still not listening to them, until I was attacked by the sharks and died. At first I didn’t mind it because I knew it was just a dream, I was in denial. My cousins were panicking and shouting to my mom that I already died, meanwhile I was laughing at them. My mom didn’t believe it until she looked at my direction, the water was red filled with blood and the bits of my body parts. There, I realized I was really dead, I panicked, cried, and worried about my friends and family.

6 Apr 2024

Dream

i was dreaming about myself but i was another woman. so i was a hair influencer andi kept doing my hair but while i was doing it i would make sure i was doing it with gluten free products because the. eiwets kept asking for it. then suddenly i was dancing with a kpop idol and he was really shy so i kept try to get him out of his comfort zone. then i was at school but the cafeteria was really nice and i had to try and give a teacher their calculator back so i had to run halfway across the school to try and find the teacher after i gave it to her i was in the bathroom with my friend sophia and another girl but idk who she was. i dont remember what happened in between but we ended up having sex😭i just remember pleasuring sophia with the other girl then when we were done she told us not to tell anyone because her family was homophobic

1 Apr 2024

Dream

My last dream was about me being a Kpop idol and I was in a group called A-ble I was the Maknae of the group and the leader of the group