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3 Nov 2024

Dream

I was with three other girls. We were dressed nice, short dresses, makeup, heels even. It was a city area and we went into this nice looking huge building. I don’t know what we were looking for, but eventually men started to follow us. We started rushing through different areas of the building, even jumping some distances to get rid of these men but they never seemed to relent. We got separated into groups of two and eventually got out of the building, somehow meeting back up outside while still retreating. Somehow we were still having fun, laughing and enjoying ourselves while getting away from these men. We had smiles on our faces, joy in our eyes, while jumping through the maze of a building and running out into the city. Two men followed us out so we kept going in the city, running around with each other. I kept waking up and falling asleep back into the same dream to continue it.

24 Oct 2024

Dream

We went to Korea and saw a famous ship which was a tourist spot statue. It was the jyp building. I passed the audition online and was choose. To be a trainee. I was only able to speak little Korean. The teacher came and was friendly. I said안영하세요 저는 달시카입니다. We chatted for a bit and then we were about ti go for lunch when the airplanes flew across the sky. It had the flag colors of Korea in smoke. There were many other trainees. Tye teacher made a joke and said a 아까 리아 이렇게 했어. I wanted to ask what she did but didnt know how to in korean. So i said 음… 쟤는… she understood what I meant and showed me. She bowed down to the airplane because she thought we had to do it as a sign. Of respect. Then we went to lunch. At lunch I got my food which was a very small portion of food but I was still happy. I walked around the canteen trying to find a seat. But everything was taken up. Then I found one seat but it was beside a bunch of Korean trainees. I went to the seat and said very softly 여기 먹을 수 있어요? They were resply cold, mean and shy but nodded yes. I ate and afte rthat walked around the builiding. I saw it was really dark. I was happy that my dream of being an kpop idol was coming true. I saw groups practicing in the huge practice rooms. I then went to a room that was white in color filled with trainees and teachers. My teacher came to me and we sat down. She told me its a personal quiz. In that activity I pasted a music genre from a newspaper cut out. She asked me 너 아메라칸 펖도 좋아해? I said 아니요. 케이팝 좋아요. Then after that we went to our dorms. W had to sleep on the floor. There were all koreans and exchange trainees. We slept. I keot thinking about how my dream of being a Kpop idol was about to come true.

17 Oct 2024

Dream

I was looking for a place to live and I found this really cute cottage somewhere out in the nowhere and I went there with the train for an apartment viewing and there were like four other people living there looking for a roommate. They invited me on the balcony for a cup of tea and they were really nice and seemed much younger than they were but when I expressed how much I loved the landscape and the house they started saying that it's falling apart and actually not really all that beautiful and even though I saw what they were talking about, for me that had lots of charme

10 Oct 2024

Dream

Dream 6 Oct 2024 Group Dynamics,Powers,+Shape-Shifting Shows(+ Wolverine,Woody,+Leather Jackets) Group of people trying to accomplish something while staying away from the bad guys. Different scenes, here’s what I remember. The group is talking right before a concert, reviewing videos. One woman unexpectedly berates another woman (who is showing signs of early pregnancy) regarding another dude. The guy has powers reminiscent of Doctor Strange, but not quite the same. After reviewing the video, one of the guys, who seems to be in teaching mode, says, “Now, why did that happen? Why did she take this particular time to lash out?” A couple of people offer different answers, including that maybe they had animosity before, or that everyone has been stressed and tired, culminating in her yelling at her. I half-heartedly say that “maybe the woman liked him before, but as a celebrity-from-afar crush, and it wasn’t until she actually met him that he became “real“ for her because it was an in-person interaction, so then she felt more animosity towards the other woman who I think she called fat or something to insult her.” My groupmates turn and give me a semi-skeptical, semi-tired look, and I note again that this was a stretch, but I wanted to mention it to provide another option. In the next scene, this guy is about to perform on stage (I can’t remember if it’s the same Doctor Strange-like guy or a different person from our group). His stage manager (who we haven’t interacted with much) goes out first and shape shifts a bunch of times to warm up the crowd, which starts ramping up. Then our guy goes out on the stage, and the crowd gets even wilder. He continues the shape-shifting a couple of times on stage before shifting into the image of Wolverine and jumping off the stage to crowd surf. The scene switches for a few seconds to slow motion, and, at first, I’m not sure if the crowd will catch him—but then they do. Then he shifts into someone else, and the game is to see who he Shifted into. His power now is to make eye contact with someone and shift over into them, transporting himself and temporarily taking over their body. I look around and realize that pretty much everyone at the show is in costume, from the X-Men to a couple of guys dressed as Woody from Toy Story, and a bunch of other characters/costumes. I realize that everyone here must be consenting to this, or how else would he be making eye contact? We also realize that the bad guys are somewhere here (or maybe we always knew they were here, but now we realize that it’s time to make moves), so it’s important for our guy to keep shape-shifting so they can’t grab him. I think this was part of the plan for the beginning of the concert. He transports into someone over to the stage left amongst a couple of people, then goes rapid-fire around the front of the stage into different people. I also realize that he has started specifically targeting guys wearing black leather jackets. I guess it’s going to be time to get away. He goes into a couple more people, then I out, flags to the left by this tall, beefy-built guy in a black biker jacket. I follow them out—cut scene— Now we’re in the car discussing the concert show. One woman (who reminds me of the doctor from Daredevil/Luke Cage/Iron Fist) is saying that she definitely doesn’t mind this new look (implying that she thinks she’s handsome), wild play, play elbow, and him in the seat next to her. We’re figuring out what to do next, but I wake up. Overall mood/context: adventures, group dynamics, working together, collaborative, curious, magic

3 Oct 2024

Dream

I had a dream that I was on vacation. I didn’t see people I knew in the dream. I had a bag with my wallet in it and it left it somewhere. I ended up on the dance floor and told the DJ that I was missing my bag with my wallet. If anyone found it, there would be a reward. He announced it and almost everyone started helping me look. People started bringing me bags that were not mine, but they were looking. Some people gave me gifts for some reason. I ended up eating with strangers. I’m not sure why I was with people I did not know. I did not seem to mind. I remember sitting at one table with a group of people who worked for the same company. The other table I sat with were all African Americans who were “cousins” and part of a sorority. I remember I started looking for my bag, and could not find it. I needed it so I could go back home.

5 Sep 2024

Dream

I dreamed I was at school taking the certificate and when I went outside the school after we finished the celebration I saw my ex friend and then mum greeted her and she was like super happy to meet her and my ex friend was nice and talking to me not as in real life now we don't talk . So then at the dream mum also greeted her mum which in real life she like hates us really but I think in dream her mum was nice and also I saw that I sent from a long time my ex friend a happy birthday message and she saw it and responded to me on a group on watsapp with pictures which had me and her and other friends and I remember I was keeping putting like on them

2 Sep 2024

Dream

In my dream, I was at my old secondary school and my close friend, Flick, was wearing orange leg warmers and an orange vest alongside other prefects. I was a prefect as well but I didn’t have to wear Flick’s outfit. I began laughing hysterically as everyone in my year group had to walk into one of our old PE halls and we all had to sit on benches together. Suddenly someone began playing the Rhianna song ‘SOS’ and some people were humming along to it while I began fully singing the song and then other people joined it. Then I woke up from the dream.

2 Sep 2024

Dream

Last night I dreamt that a group of my friends and I pulled a very elaborate (good natured) prank on one of our friends. It was hilarious and clever and fun.

31 Aug 2024

Dream

I had a dream I went to where my boyfriend was hanging out with his “friend”. I knew something else was going on so I started asking one of the friends girlfriend where the other girl was. She told me to chill out and the it’s not her problem and that she’s coming back. I turn around to a group of girls walking up. I ask who’s getting with and seeing my boyfriend. I girl reply’s me and we’re only sleeping together. As I’m starting to get upset and panic, everyone begins looking at me in a way that they are looking at me crazy and almost gaslighting me that it’s not a big deal. The other girl starts to ask me to walk off and then I wake

27 Aug 2024

Dream

Visiting mother’s side grandmother’s house with mom Buying onigiri, our favorite snacks and a pencil and a sketchbook The last two items are for finishing ip a group art/presentation project before the family gatherings We get to grandma’s apartment, lounging at the third floor room while the relatives gradually gather I work on my project sketches This project is eerily similar to how the one for my last school trip in high school went(it was a recreational activity assignment, and it was to make a full skit in mere two nights during our stay; I was assigned the group leader for my team solely because I was the oldest of the bunch in grades(there were fucking 7th-8th graders in the mix). while other teams had their own friends and had an easier time just having fun while creating I knew none of the people prior to the event, our group were full of either socially awkward, plain unfunny, possessing blessings in the art of seriousness(cannot lighten/loosen up and jokey to save their life), or were chronic pessimist/complainer so much that it actually sabotaged the progress of the production; we ended up bombing the whole thing because none of us could or were in any condition to think up a decent sketch(the three-day schedule of the school trip was PACKED, not a minute of room for realistic rest or unwinding, nor to brainstorm or practice our ideas; it was unfairly designed and my team and I got the shortest end of the stick among all other teams my three 12th grade classmates were leading) and time ran out before we could come up with a coherent script. I blew up on their face mid-performance because I just couldn’t fucking take it(i was also in the middle of mental health crisis unsupported by adults around me and were on three bins of energy drinks), left a brave 8th grader who came up with the script idea publicly humiliated and traumatized(I did apologize to him afterwards and deeply regretted and felt ashamed of it but still)) And just like in real life I end up mismanaging the time and forget that it was supposed to start around the same time as the family gathering party/dinner(7pm) Once I realize this at like 8 after the first phase of the party is over I dash to a dark and quiet tatami room to connect to Zoom And lo and behold the one kid who suggested the plot idea for the animation is shouldering everything again; the pattern repeated itself He/she’s getting just as reckless, hopeless, frustrated and on the edge as I was in the real-life version of this event The plot was Japanese traditional horror story The art style is this beautiful Japanese coarse colored cut-paper arts(Evening is expressed with indigo papers, there’s red lotus lakes, goldfishes, red lanterns and townsfolk in kimono merrily going about their business, etc.) But all the sudden the tone of the narration changes(the medium doesn’t) and it all gets disordered beyond the savings, turning into a Hyakki Yagyo(the Demon’s Nightly Parade around the city streets from the Heian-era folklore); the one kid who shouldered it all snapped and went ‘fuck it’, started crushing the entire tone and the story on its head The viewers of this live animation performance(my classmates and the whole school) are intrigued and are curious about this sudden change, causing rumors to spread and such The rest of my team members can only watch in horror as do I, since the kid refuses to relinquish the control over the livestream, feeling unimaginably guilted for making the kid shoulder everything due to our own inactions, procrastinating and unrealistic perfectionism After the whole thing ended in a strange little comical(to us, utterly humiliating and horrifying) happenings, I go talk to the kid to first of all check in on their mental state and overall condition(wellbeing and sanity) The kid is sitting on the tatami, looks up at me upon noticing with an eerily calm, almost uncannily gentle smile and tone I scramble to apologize on my team’s behalf for making him/her suffer but they would not hear me, pausing me with a raise of their hand; a strange air of eery composure and authority to them now, hard to deny I feel overwhelmingly helpless and guilty as we are both now teleported to inside a moving bus, the kind I’d see running around the Tokyo metropolitan area often It appears the vehicle is around Hatsudai(near Ikebukuro-Setagaya); the sky is blocked by the thick, highway guardrail and the surrounding high buildings and skyscrapers, and I see a highway ramp ahead that the bus doesn’t seem to be getting on I implore the kid what they want and such, but they ignore my words and continue on with their strange questions and words about my Vedic astrological signs, which are Uttara/Purva Bhadrapada, for moon and sun signs respectively Some talk about how my ruling deity, Shani(personification of Saturn in Vedic astrology; son of Indra/Surya, half-nephew of Shiva, the dreadful dispenser of karma on behalf of Lord Yama of the afterlife), Ahir Budhnya(Ananta Shesha, the Serpent from the Depths in the Hindu creation myth) as well as Aja Ekapada(the fierce, one-legged serpentine aspect of Lord Shiva, specifically in-tune with darker, occult subjects like black magic, the left hand path and such), plays major role in my nearly lethal, intense and unignorable, leader-like qualities that I am born with Something that is according to the kid’s observations “omnipresent in my life and in that of those who interact with me”; says whoever I interact or encounter in my life, however minor their roles or involvement may be, leaves either me or the subject person completely transformed, with their egos(and sometimes any other parts of their preconceived notions about the world or of their healthy self-esteem or ego) destroyed; that I am either the person’s karma or I myself am given the karma of Shani, Aja Ekapada’s(or of Shiva or Yama himself indirectly, through him), swiftly and devastatingly It’s starting to turn into some kind of a spiritual lesson delivered through this incredibly emotionally heavy reenactment of traumatic circumstances and I don’t like it The kid ignores my discomfort and goes onto talk about the qualities of the blue sapphire, the gemstone influenced by Neelam, the personification of the gem and also a consort of Lord Shani(Saturn) and the mythical connections to what is needed(moral disciplines, consistencies and dedication to serve your fellow humans from the heart), and how it applies to this current situation(basically the kid’s telling em to humble myself and such after admitting that I’m also complicit in this dysfunctional dynamic of the project group as its team leader) and beyond(how there is an urgent need for me to heal my traumas and what came with it that is starting to affect my external environment(the people in my surroundings aka my teammates and other peers, staffs and teachers who interact with me in this school) in a scarring way)

25 Aug 2024

Dream

I was an accomplice to a murder. I was attending a dinner with a small group of women. No idea what the occasion was. It was at one of their homes. My partner came with me. There was a blonde woman there that my partner was flirting with and vice versa so i was in a really bad mood. I was angry but trying so hard to hide it but the more the woman spoke the harder it was to hold in my anger and annoyance. We were all sitting together in a large circle- the blonde women sitting opposite me and my partner on the other side of the room. The blonde woman eventually got up and when she did, another woman just randomly went up to her and slit her throat with a kitchen knife. The next thing i remember we were all trying to flee the situation and avoid getting caught. But the people i escaped with were not the same people from the house. My partner was no longer with me but i didn’t necessarily notice this in the dream. I was really scared, especially about getting caught. The group i was with was really set on denying that we knew anything, should we be questioned. But they didn’t have a plan, no alibi, no nothing. I thought to myself, “we’re not gonna get away with this, they will know she was with us last if they seize her phone”. Eventually we end up at some type of prison camp? I’m actually not sure what it was, but there were lots of other people there and there was set meal times, followed by everyone lining up to get vitamins, similar something like that of a camp or prison. I don’t know why hay is significant. There were haystacks around this place. I repeatedly played the scene in my head and i remember feeling a sense of relief when i remembered that i didn’t kill the woman myself. I reminded one of the people in my group and they mentioned that the girl who did it wasn’t even with us. I was terrified of going to jail but knew i was incapable of lying. I was thinking of all the ways we’d get caught and trying to find a way around it.

13 Aug 2024

Dream

I was at house I lived in with my best friend ( we don't live together anymore and are no longer friends it ended in bad terms) but their were a lot of people and men, the group of people left an a man stayed behind we were about to have sex when the group appeared back in the house and was watching me and the other man whom I was preforming oral on an started to judge me, one of he girls who judged me was a old coworker whom I never really cared for I fought her for her comments she made towards me. Fast forward me and the young man seemed to be very connected and ighink brought me food and gave me money. Fast-forward again the house started to flood and my best friend called her mom and in the dream her family know I was planning on moving out and they told her she shouldn't worry because it would be my responsibility as in she planned on leaving me with the mess the young man who I was talking about before was not happy and spoke of it!