21 Jul 2024
pages.dreamInterpretation.dream
I'm seeing things through the eyes of my doppelganger Julie, whom I've had to spiritually battle several times since my awakening in 2020, and I can see how she lives, and what her timeline looks like.
When I was 15 I was raped, and got pregnant. I had a miscarriage, however in viewing Julie's world, she wound up having the baby, who is now a small child, maybe 7 years old; even though if our timelines lined up, that child should be more like 22 years old, but I know they don't always align...
The child is petulant and aggressive, and suffers from some form of autism. The father is out of the picture, and she lives in an efficiency dilapidated apartment where you constantly hear police sirens, see red and blue lights, and most of the block's electricity is either spotty or altogether not working.
There's yelling and screaming regularly, and there's mold growing in the kitchen. Her boyfriend Kyle is physically abusive and she fights back. They've stabbed each other, and he once threw boiling water on her.
They both have long arrest records, and she hates her life as a mother so much that she would rather go to prison for child abuse or even infanticide than take the time to be a responsible parent.
She doesn't allow me past her building, she won't let me meet anyone else in her life; so part of me thinks she's an actual serial killer, and that's why I'm in love with all things horror. It's her bleeding into me.
When I wake up from visiting her timeline, I find that my legs are heavily bruised up with marks that look like someone tried to grab and drag me, as well as bruises on my forearms that resemble defense wounds.
