7 Jun 2024
Dream
I don't remember a lot, but I was in a... I could see myself running in a circle, almost like a racetrack. And I had that realization, seeing myself, that I'm being drugged and that I get from someone drugs to stay calm and at peace, and that I feel none of the rush. It's just drugs to not act out. So I have that realization that it's just to, yeah, to stay calm and to put up with things, with the monotony and whatnot. And I have that realization that it's not, that it's really not fun. It shouldn't be like this. I mean, should be the whole package, though. The drug experience is none at all.