28 Oct 2024
Dream
My dream was so bizarre. I had extremely strong emotions. I learned that Jin and I could never actually be together forever - he told me he didn't have the ability to love me as deeply as I loved him, and he told me to let him go. I was heartbroken. Then, little by little men in my life wanted me - like Sejin told them to distract me from my broken heart. Caleb even liked me. And then Em, the girl from school, her bf even tried sneaking into a shower with me. Towards the end, I was at this weird, huge Waterpark. It was scary because if you fell in the water, you would be pulled down this super long, huge water slide. I was all the sudden there with Destini. And I told her I have jealousy issues and possessive issues. I saw Jin at the Waterpark and he was with my sister. It made me so jealous and raged. But then I slipped in the long water slide and was taken far, far away from all of them :( I started drowning, and a nice Korean guy picked me up out of the water, it looked like Jin's brother, but I didn't know him. He told me I was invited to his birthday party, and all the sudden I was in a super nice beach house and I was at a birthday party with a bunch of Koreans with this guy. And we all sang happy birthday for him in Korean, and they all asked how I knew all the words. I was about to tell them it was because of my first love, Jin, but when I tried to say his named, I couldn't. It was like the words were cursed from ever coming out of my mouth again. And then all the sudden I forgot what I was about to say - I forgot all about Jin and everything that happened between us. I still felt heartbreak, but I didn't even know why. I ended up drinking a bunch at the party and the birthday guy wanted to dance with me, so he did. But then he tried to kiss me, and I wouldn't let him.