28 Mar 2025
Dream
I had a dream, in all detail, a long dream, where I am very happy in my life. I'm a successful businesswoman, I feel centered, I feel calm. And then I work with a company, and they're supporting me in, I don't know, marketing or something. And there's this woman that I have a really good working relationship with. I feel like this could be a friendship. And I have a big deal coming up, and like a accumulation of work, where there needs to be a contract signed. And it turns out that everything is in one day, so there is this big business deal. There's a work meeting with that woman I appreciate, and then there's a party in the evening. And then there's also a male colleague of that woman who shows some interest in me. I find him attractive, and he clearly finds me attractive. Nothing is happening yet, but I'm always a bit, where is he? He's also supposed to be at that party. So here's what happened. My business transaction runs late, and for some reason I have to make a decision. Party or a work meeting with that woman. And in my dream, it wasn't that complicated. I could have just easily sent a note or communicated. But for some reason I'm delaying, so I'm not doing the obvious. And I'm digging a deeper and deeper hole for myself. And I end up not telling her, standing her up and going to the party. And the party happens to be in the office, in their office. And she's there, and she doesn't say anything. We're friendly, and I had the opportunity to say, hey listen, this is what happened today. I don't do it. And this man who's flirty with me also wants my attention. So I feel so stupid that I'm not addressing something. So I'm trying, I have the idea to get into one of the offices and send her an email. So I'm sitting at a computer in an office, while the party is outside the room. And I have to sneak away. I don't want anyone to know what I'm doing. And I'm sitting in front, and I can't get the words out to put in the email. And it's almost ridiculous, it shouldn't be that hard. But also I waited so long, and I didn't talk to her in person. So I tried this two or three times, but I'm not doing it. And I also can't enjoy the advances of a man I like, because I'm so preoccupied with that unresolved situation. So that dream ended, I woke up, I fell asleep again, and then I dreamt about running up the stairs. Just running up the stairs, really fast.