17 Jan 2026
Dream
So this dream is a reoccurring dream of I've like bought a ticket to America or Italy or Australia and it's kind of so unorganized and it's like that day I'm leaving and I've got to pack my bag and I don't even know who's taking me to the airport, I don't even know the details of it, I haven't even organized what I'm taking and it's weird because I'm in that space, I've let myself be unorganized, I've let myself be a mess that this thing has come up and I'm not even aware of it which is crazy and which is really scary to me that I would be so unprepared. And then it's really stressful that maybe like I don't know I'm rushing to the airport and I'm nearly missing the flight or I don't even really know where I'm going and why and it's just this feeling of unpreparedness that it's not clear where I'm going, I don't have my suitcase packed, the time has come all of a sudden and I haven't said goodbye to my friends, I'm not prepared to leave, I'm not organized and yeah so that's a recurring dream I have and I think I feel emotions of like detachedness and like just messiness and looseness and like just unaware of like what's going in my life and unprepared and then that gives me anxiety of like but it's actually a really big thing, taking a flight to the other side of the world and being there for another amount of time, it's something that you do need to think through and it's crazy that I just haven't and it's just not well thought out.