I Dreamt Of Getting Kidnapped And Facing Spiritual Consequences

I went to 3 parties of my friends and got kidnapped at all 3. They all had demands of just apologizing and to stop doing wrong. I stop going to parties and went to Job Corp and got kidnapped there where they tortured me and I had to leave Job Corp. I went home and started partying and my boyfriend broke up with me and I started popping pills and smoking weed and drinking myself to death, I ended up in the hospital because of alcohol poisoning and I had a dream of god telling me if I don’t stop what I’m doing I’m going to end up dead. But I didn't listen I kept drinking and popping pills and doing weed and one day I passed out and I ran towards the white door. I seen god but he didn't look at me and my heart broke as I tried running to the golden-covered gate surrounded by white clouds a trap door opens and I slide down going to a gate. Its surrounded by fire a red, orange and yellow firey gate with 2 gargoyles smirking up me with their red eyes saying welcome and I sighed as the gate opens and I walk in as my dream fades to black.