Dream About Mother Sickness And Guilt

So I was overthinking about my mom and then somehow I found out that she had this thing called pacision disease or something and I remember that I looked up one time about the disease and it was through my medicine that prevented it I thought and also at one point she was eating barbecue sauce and hotdogs and I kept questioning what she was eating just like she did to me like when she was checking my weight in real life and she was like dying and also when that happened no one else was there like not dad or anyone and I was like crying a lot and I was feeling really guilty and also I think at one point my mom said it might happen to me but then all of a sudden I was in track while after that happend and I won barrely by passing this person but then after that happend I saw Carmelo standing there looking at me like sad and just standing there well I thought at the time he looked sad and then I sat after I celebrated but then I thought about my mom just sitting there and someone asked if I was ok and I just started crying so much remembering how careing my mom was and also because Someone I used to love looked sad but then I think after that I was climbing down stairs somehow when I was with my dad which I think means your going down low and are haveing low self asteam also because of the great wild lodge dream I think after my mom was sick.. I also think in the story somehow I was really fat for some reason and my dad was like jaked and my mom was not doing well she was hunched over and I asked why am I fat and I was like fat with ruffles on my belly there was this thing where 2 guys where in a video game so I feel like the thing with my mom and dad and me being fat was just a simulation..