Dream About Cleaning A Truck

Had a dream that I don’t quite understand. Raphael & I of course are no longer together in ANY capacity but for some reason, in the dream, I ended up with his Mom’s truck. His Mom (her name is Ms. Gardner) was at a church function & I was there too. Somehow, I ended up dropping my own car off at her house and taking her truck to get it washed for her. She didn’t know I was gonna wash her truck & fill up the tank for her. I think I had used her truck for some purpose that I don’t recall so as a “thank you”, I took her truck to the car wash. I noticed the dashboard of the truck had some kind of sticky film on it so I took some clorox wipes & wiped it off. While cleaning the inside of the truck, the truck picked up Ms. Gardner’s conversation through the blue tooth. She was recalling to another lady how the church service was so long & the preacher was preaching for over an hour. While still cleaning the truck, I could hear the preacher’s sermon. He was telling the young people to take inventory of their lives & seek God or put God first. I had finished cleaning Ms. Gardner’s truck & was preparing to bring it back to her or pick her up. I knew she trusted me with the truck because she let me drive it. (In real life, I’ve driven it a few times). I still was picking up her conversation through blue tooth & could visualize everything she spoke about. She was then talking to Raphael. I knew he had another friend. Instinctively, i knew this friend liked to gossip & talk about people. The “gay community” would consider his personality as messy. Of course it wasn’t my place to say anything. I just felt some sort of way though. He devalued 13 years of friendship with me & acted as if I had never did anything for him or meant anything. His Mom jokingly said, “Ivan is my spouse Ralph. He’s taking your place since you’re no longer here or around”. (This part is In real life. Ralph moved to Atlanta. After my sister in law passed away in July, he came to the service. Between October 2025 & July 2026, I had not seen or heard from Ralph because i blocked him. After the Spirit led me to the house we shared last year, there was whole other man in the shower in the bed room up stairs. Ralph started pulling away from me shortly after Resurrection Sunday last year after a silly disagreement. People don’t make decisions overnight though & I think he was talking to other guys nearly the entire time. I wasn’t expecting Ralph to be a liar, user, manipulator, & covert narcissist. Love is blind & i had ignored or forgiven the red flags. Im still recovering & healing from that situation. I had been so depressed that I couldn’t eat & barely sleep. I felt so alone last year & this was before I found that guy in the shower. I knew something was wrong. I felt it in my soul so finding our the truth of his true character after all these years was devastating. My life revolved around him. We took trips, sung on Praise & Worship, made love together, shared bills & responsibility only for my entire life to be turned upside down. I was devastated….shattered. Yolanda Adams sing “Still I Rise” came to my mind one Sunday. Those lyrics speak to my heartache. I’ve come a long way these last 12 months. Im still healing) That’s the backstory (or some of it) but the fact that his Mom still trusted me in the dream meant alot. So many people don’t know what he did & the extent of the damage broken trust can have on a person. Im still in shock that he would do what he did but i still respect his Mother