11 Jan 2025
Dream
Today I had a dream about being in a horror game. I think I was being chased after a monster. It was crazy. There was also a house in this game where a guy seemed to be beating a woman up. At one point he came out of his house and said he was going to look for a new victim. He might have tried chasing after me once. The dream turned into a pool. I remember being chased by something and then went into this crowded pool. A man tried to talk to me in the pool. He was older than me and I remember asking him if he had money and I think he said yes. While we were talking a woman came over and I asked him if she was his wife. I remember I felt obligated to say “I asked that because she's pretty” but I'm not sure if that's how I felt. Then I remember walking out of the pool. I remember feeling like I was hot. I went to a port-a-potty outside the pool. It was very small. This part of the dream felt very vivid. I looked at the small mirror in the bathroom, even though I wanted it to be big, and this felt very real. I think I changed clothes in the bathroom from my bathing suit to a normal outfit, jeans, shorts, and maybe a beige shirt. I then think I transitioned to like a football game. I just remember walking past a group of boys and wondering if any of them were going to talk to me. A guy named Faris did, and we had good talk. I remember I had a ski mask on, only my eyes were showing. Interesting. I next remember being in school, my middle school for some reason, even though I'm in high school. And I saw two boys from my elementary school, J.R. and Ryan, talking to each other. My friend Asta was with me in the school. I told her that three of my bullies were there, even though there was only two people and only one of them bullied me. I also then saw an ex-crush named RJ, and I said out loud, “he's so fine”. I thought nobody heard me, or thought that I said that, But everybody, including RJ, turned around to look at me. I remember a girl named Ashley passed me a note on the ground, and I picked it up. I don't remember what it said. Maybe I didn't even look at it. I then walked the hallways and saw Ryan behind me. And he said something about me eating cake. I said I couldn't hear because I had a ski mask on. It felt like a hat to me in that moment. But sometime in this dream, I just felt so good, I almost felt perfect. I thought, wow, it seems like I'm ready to go back to school because I'm homeschooled now. I thought I was good enough in conversation/ connection, which is just what I want. And nobody hated me. Great.
