1 Aug 2024
Dream
I had a dream that I was with a friend I have a complicated friendship with. I spoke to him about what happened at college and my disappointment with how things have turned out. He didn’t show any emotions, he was just emotionless and listened. I was upset though and began crying, I needed a hug but he just watched me cry. I eventually went up to the top of my college’s roof and different people came out with me pleading me to come down but in tears I just smiled back at them. I whispered to them “Goodbye” and I fell from the roof top. While falling I could see some people I once considered friends looking guilty with my tutors panicking and crying shouting out for me. I continued smiling though and I crashed into a deep ocean that replaced the ground. I could see myself and I appeared happy in the ocean, I felt like a child swimming again like I used to enjoy. I was in the ocean for ages. In the background of the dream a Taylor Swift song called ‘Don’t Blame Me’ was playing in the background. But it got louder when it reached to the breakdown part of the song with the lyrics saying “Oh Lord, save me, my drug is my baby I'll be usin' for the rest of my life. Usin' for the rest of my life, ohh-oh.” I don’t particularly like Taylor Swift as an artist but that part of the song sounds heavenly as if sung by a female choir.
Then the dream shifted, I had a strange dream that I had to take a family friend to school and she recently lost her dog (her dog was my dog’s best friend) and I had to take her to the secondary school down my road. I walked with her to the school and it appeared we were late for entering. The teachers grabbed two eleven year old boys and placed yellow hi-vis vest on them to identify them as late. After being roughed up by the teachers they walked down to the school’s proper entrance and this one middle aged male teacher came up to me and my friend. He told me that she had to sign in and return to me for half an hour and gave me a rack of keys in different colours as he took my friend with him. I waited with the keys and then my friend came out again after the teacher said she could have a break with me for a bit. Somehow her younger sister came up to the school and I remember us sitting at a bus stop near the school. Somehow we got on the bus for fun for half-an hour and then it led to us getting on a train. I remember panicking and becoming really scared of getting into trouble so I told the girls to get off at this one train stop and to wait for the next train that got us back to the eldest’s school. I went to check I had all of my belongings and when I finished the train closed their doors before I could join the girls and I remember screaming and getting angry and asking for it to stop so I could get off. It didn’t work but then the train reversed back and began travelling back to the previous stop. Leaving the girls stranded at the stop to wait for another train. I got off at my train stop and ran back to the school. What a was shocked about was the fact two separate roads near the location I live in were combined together with this big hill sloping down. My grandparents came passing by, in their car with my dog and then they all jumped out the car into this banana boat type of thing and had rowing sticks with them and glided down the hill telling me I should join them but I giggled and said no. They bumped into a few cars but they didn’t hurt themed by any means. Then my mum came up walking towards me in a yellow bear onesie and with space buns in her hair. She began asking about the girls who were still at the train station and I panicked and lied saying they were in school. My mum believed me and we walked to the school. But when my mum couldn’t see the girls she became suspicious of my actions. I began panicking and became more frustrated with my mum and the girls not returning when I told them the directions of how to get back. And my mum began shaking me and telling me how much of a bad person I was and I snapped and smacked her with a Barbie doll a few times. Then her forehead began stretching like the doll’s forehead becoming longer each time. I remember the doll being alive though and waking up and I felt extremely guilty for what I had done. So I fixed my mum’s face and made her look normal again while I tried fixing the doll to appear more pretty. Unfortunately the doll gained a lazy eye and no matter how hard I tried, it still remained. I felt guilty and the dream ended when I woke up finding it hard to breathe.
