25 Aug 2024
Dream
I was pregnant. I was with Carson and we were talking about what the name would be, I got to choose if it was a girl, he got to choose if it was a boy. I didn't like the name he picked out, and since we already had one kid (from a previous dream) that was a boy, and if this was a boy, maybe I would get to choose. He reluctantly agreed.
I went into labor so we went to the hospital. The doctors were clearing out a special room for me but no one would tell me why, but the doctor said it was so they could fit more people in there so they could watch. When I finally got to the room, they were taking out the normal bed and replaced it with an archaic wooden table with straps. I asked the doctor what was going on.
He said I didn't have a cervix and that was rare and he wanted people to watch. I was freaking out because I didn't like the wooden table. My mom showed up and tried to calm me down. I kept freaking out because I didn't know what was going on. Finally, a female doctor came in to see what was wrong and I told her I didn't want to give birth like this. After a few minutes of discussion, she decided she was going to take over instead of the other doctor, and she brought in a normal hospital bed and took out the wooden one. I was laying on the bed and asking the doctor questions (it was established that we've been acquaintances since elementary school). I asked her if I was gonna be able to push out the baby without a cervix. She said we'll figure it out. My mom wasn't happy with that answer, but I told my mom I trusted this doctor. The doctor told me that it's good I have a second kid now because the first one wasn't getting stimulated enough. (From a previous dream, I had someone else watch him and as far as I knew, he only stayed in one room of the house. I realized I hadn't seen him in so long and I was questioning if I was good enough to even have another kid)
I gave birth fairly easily, but after a few moments of crying, the baby stopped and he couldn't breathe. They tried clearing his airways and I asked my doctor if this was my fault. She told me no and that this is just a complication that happens sometimes.
