31 Aug 2024
Dream
I'm shedding an absolute tear right now because I just know that somewhere, somehow, my Uncle David is looking down on me and everything, and he's very happy, but I just, I'm thinking about the movie It Chapter Two when Eddie and Richie separated, lifetime-wise, because one of them got killed by the clown, and then he's, Richie is just crying and crying about Eddie, and he carves his name into the wood thing before he leaves Derry, Maine, and it's just really making me sad because I never get to see him in front of my Uncle, and I miss him so much. It's immeasurable pain, but I miss him so much, and I know that Eddie and Richie were great friends, just like I loved my sweet Uncle, and it just hurts that I can't show him all these wonderful things. That movie rings so true when Eddie dies, and then Richie has to live on because they were best friends, just like me and my Uncle were best friends, and good friends. I don't want to lose my parents, the same as I don't want to lose my Uncle, but I lost him. All good things must come to an end, no matter what, good or bad, but I've accepted that, and I just really miss my fuckin' Uncle right now, I just fuckin' miss him, and I wish he was here to see all my progress.