18 Nov 2023
Dream
I had this dream a long time ago, I think I was seven or eight years old when I dreamt this but I have remembered it ever since.
It was just after a dancing performance, i was at the after party and all the dancing teachers, the moms and dads and the families of the kids who had performed were talking and laughing and remembering nice moments. We had come there by car. To get to the lace of the after party you had to drive a long way over a dyke, we live in the netherlands, and then a square land would stretch out to the left, like very square made by humans, and the stroke of the dyke was free from vegetation except for grass, only to the left was an open spot surrounded by the trees of a forest. I was in that open spot of the forest, and so were so many other people. The trees gave us protection against the strong wind that blew there. Everyone was happy and dancing and talking, but I was not. I saw a friend who was a few years older then I was back then and I kind of looked up to her. We stood next to each other, but then she walked away because she'd seen something, and I followed her. We came to a table with two big boxes of candies and sweets, and she grabbed a very cute sugar penguin. I wanted a candy like that too, so I grabbed around in the big box until I turned my hand and saw the sugar penguin I had hoped for. I had been a bit anxious that my friend had grabbed the last and that there were no penguin candies left for me. But while I had been grabbing a penguin candy, she had already moved away into the crowd of people. I just saw her slipping away and I started to follow her. I wasn't happy like the people around me, I wasn't feeling happy, I had a feeling as if my chest was closed of and couldn't move, like somethingbad was about to happen. I wanted to find my friend but I could only see a glimpse of her. And while I was maneuvering my way through the crowd of grown-ups, my mom stopped me. She told me that it was cold and she wanted me to put my sweater on. Before I could protest she pulled my sweater over my head, and for a moment all I could see was the pink of the inside of my knitted sweater. When I could see again, I looked intently at the place where I had last seen my friend. It was at the border where the trees stopped and where there was only grass. When I looked right after I could see again, I saw the penguin candy falling on the grass. I had a feeling of anxiety and confusion and scared curiosity, and I rushed over there because I was afraid something had happened to my friend. And as I just came out of the open spot of the forest, not anymore protected by the trees, looking and hoping to find my friend, a gust of wind lifted me up and I dropped my penguin candy. The wind lifted me higher and higher away from the ground into the grey clouds, and there was nothing I could do, I was paralyzed by fear.
