29 Apr 2024
Dream
My dream was about my boyfriend Nick. He told me that his coworker and friend Will would be picking him up extra early the next day so that the two of them could go do something together before going in to work. Which would leave me home alone, seven months pregnant, caring for our two year old toddler alone. I felt upset about this, but didn’t express those feelings FULLY, only minimally. In my dream we were living in our old home in Middlefield again, which was our dream location, but also where we both endured a lot of dark times. So after telling me his plans to hangout with his friend, and ensuring me I could trust him, he grabbed a bottle of wine and filled up a to-go coffee mug with the wine. That set me off completely and I just lost my temper. I started screaming and yelling at him, telling him not to come back, that I would be gone, etc. I remember trying to cry in my dream to show him that I was feeling very hurt, but no tears were coming. I KNEW that I was being crazy, but had no control over myself. Then, my old boss of eleven years Hiroshi came knocking on my door. I was surprised to see him since he moved to Hawaii, but I let him in. Hiroshi was trying to ask for my assistance with something on his phone, and I could barely keep my attention because I was still fuming about Nick. When Nicks ride got there to pick him up, I threw another fit, secretly hoping that he would change his mind and not go hangout with Will. It didn’t work. I refused to say goodbye to him, I said mean things to him, and he left with Will.
