Jenna, your dream is rich with symbolism that touches on several key themes in your life. The roller coaster represents the ups and downs of your emotions and experiences, especially considering your current feelings of sadness and the financial and career changes you've been facing. Skipping to the end of the line suggests a desire to avoid situations that feel overwhelming or daunting, which is understandable given your occasional difficulty in falling asleep and the stress you experience. Finding a girl who cannot ride the roller coaster due to her physical condition might reflect your own feelings of being held back or restricted in some way, perhaps by your mental health challenges. Your willingness to engage with her highlights your empathy and ability to connect with others, even when you might be feeling vulnerable yourself.
The caretaker entering the scene introduces an element of trust that quickly turns unsettling. Your instinct to feel uncomfortable around him is significant; it indicates a struggle with trusting your gut instincts, especially when surrounded by people who seem to act out of the ordinary. The imagery of everyone appearing as part of a 'satanic cult' could signify a fear of judgment or feeling alienated from others, especially in social circumstances. This might resonate with your experiences of frequently feeling sadness, as well as the anxiety that sometimes accompanies it. The cornfield could symbolize a sense of being lost or stuck in the mundane aspects of life, amplifying your feelings of being overwhelmed.
As you plead to go home, it shows a yearning for safety and comfort, reflecting perhaps your own desire for stability in the face of the changes you are navigating in your life. The mirror scene, where a caretaker asks, "are you here?" followed by graphic images, could represent a confrontation with aspects of your psyche that you find disturbing or confusing. This mirrors your own struggles with ADHD and how it can sometimes feel chaotic or hard to grasp.