30 pm, your distress over missing work for the seventh time in two weeks highlights a significant fear of failure and the consequences that come with it. Your mom's dismissive attitude, saying 'you'll be alright,' may indicate a sense of emotional neglect or a lack of support that you feel in your waking life. This dismissal escalates into a confrontation where your mom's rage and the cousin's agreement amplify the feeling of being misunderstood and unfairly judged, which might mirror real-life experiences of feeling unsupported or criticized by those close to you.
Your attempt to apologize and explain your fear of losing your job, only to be met with more hostility, suggests a deep-seated fear of conflict and a struggle to communicate your emotions effectively. The presence of your deceased father in your promise to calm your mom down indicates a longing for understanding and peace, possibly reflecting unresolved grief or a need for paternal protection in your current life.
The act of calling your granny, who has always been your protector, and her coming to get you, symbolizes seeking refuge and comfort in someone who understands and supports you unconditionally. This moment highlights the importance of having a strong support system when facing emotional turmoil. The surreal scene of a family gathering with a que line like at the airport hints at the chaotic and disconnected feeling you experience within family dynamics.
Your interaction with your cousin Tatiana, where you try to hide your overwhelming emotions, and her failure to notice your distress, underscores a sense of isolation and the difficulty of being seen and heard by those around you. The fact that you woke up feeling bad and borderline crying indicates that these unresolved emotions are profoundly affecting your well-being.
Overall, Tiana, your dream seems to encapsulate themes of fear, insecurity, conflict, and the desperate need for understanding and support.