Hotel

10 Nov 2024

Dream

This week I have been having vivid dreams. Still exploring in every one of them. I visited my old childhood apartment with my mom, significant other and our cats; But I noticed that there were other random people around us. We were allowed to look inside the apartment as it was empty. In a separate dream, I was with random people again and we were in boats. I was with a guy in one boat and his mom and friends were in another. As they sped by the man I was with got worried and we rushed to them. Their boat capsized and his mother flipped out of the boat. We jumped off our boat and crawled our way to the top of the side of the river. As we made it up, a policeman said there’s a woman who was impaled by metal. It was his mother. In a separate dream, I was in a hotel. It had old oak wood accents and an old telephone. I used the phone to call services because our sheets were dirty with makeup stains and dirt. I looked out the window and saw a breezeway with a friend of mine walking around trying to find us. Then in another dream, I always end up at my old job or school. It’s always dark outside and I feel like I’m just going through the motions.

7 Nov 2024

Dream

In my last dream, myself and friends I went to school with from elementary were venturing far to get away from pursuing men who wanted to do harm to us, and making stops at undisclosed motel and hotel rooms where we were in the process of training some friendly and clean domestic rats who would assist with finding materials and collectibles in smaller locations and to defend myself and my friends from any of the threatening pursuer’s attempts to grab, harm and trap. These fuzzy rats would be very friendly to me and my friends, but were very ready to protect and defend us from threatening people. I remember one of the rats being white with grey splotches, and very fuzzy.

2 Nov 2024

Dream

This dream was another dreamscape of mine that is very familiar and I have traveled to many times. These dreamscapes are beginning to feel more like another realm or reality than they are dreams, due to the consistency and complexity of these dreamscapes and their geography and layout. They never change and I know my way around the same way I know my way around in my waking life. This one was about a hotel or group of hotels clustered together, and some kind of car wash or similar place that I worked at. Also there is a very significant part of the dream where I was at some sort of fund raising charity event where designated individuals were present in the crowd to make donations to whatever the cause may be (I’m not even sure what it was but it had something to do with children in foster care or orphans) on behalf of wealthy Fortune 500 companies. But the majority of these people were there to misuse company funds for personal gain. There were hundreds of people there all yelling and crowding and people were coming around thru the crowd to collect the checks and mark down the amount they were receiving and who was donating it. These were VERY rich and powerful people and businesses, the amounts they were donating were up into the tens of thousands of dollars and even hundreds of thousands. I remember asking a man there if the spokespersons for these companies were using these company funds to embezzle funds for themselves and he said yes. When it was my turn I was embarrassed that I didn’t have any money to give amongst all of these people who had so much, and I attempted to give them an account and routing number that did not belong to me and I think that they found out about the fraudulent activity.

30 Oct 2024

Dream

It was evening and I was in a hotel parking lot. I was on the phone with my sister while she was in the hotel room 395. A violently angry man began pounding at her door and screaming. He wanted to get inside. She wasn’t too scared, just in disbelief, and kept apologizing to me. I could see the door almost opening from the banging. I remember the threats the man was making and how alarmed I felt.

26 Oct 2024

Dream

I was at this hotel and it was pretty cool and had a child-like style to it. I was wandering around the place, going in and out my room a few times. An issue occurred when my mother and this man was there and they’ve found out about a guy I was hanging with the man was the father of the song. My mother said she heard that I’ve said some naughty stuff on Amazon, which I found odd that she heard it there of all places and the father didn’t seem upset about the issue and was trying to diffuse the situation so I felt a bit bad when I went off on them stating this isn’t any of their business what I’m doing with my sex life. Eventually, I spoke to my mother again and I think she wanted to know what happened and I asked why would I give her that sort of information. I reminded her that our relationship isn’t at a great place, I know you feel like we do but the feeling isn’t mutual. She was hurt by my words.

25 Oct 2024

Dream

It was Christmas and everyone was at my grandpas house, except my grandpa wasn’t there, it was some guy named “Hank” that I’ve never met before. My husband and I stayed one night, but things were weird. His house was almost like a hotel inside and there was my own personal fridge and it had three gallons of milk. My grandpa doesn’t drink milk. I asked my husband to ‘settle the cat litter so we could leave’ and he got angry at me and said there was no point, but I kept insisting that my grandpa was in Wisconsin and I had to go find him. Finally we left, we drove all night, I fell asleep in the car. When I woke back up we were back at my grandpa’s original house with my step grandma and “Hank” again. I cried out “I don’t want to be here” repeatedly. I felt scared.

25 Oct 2024

Dream

I was way underground in some bunker but it looked like some children's playroom. Either I was as tall as a Lego man or everything was huge. It looked like the game it takes two. I was with a team of 2 or 3 other people. It looked like we were in the dragon ball z group because standing beside me was Gohan and I think krillin and maybe one other. We were fighting some toy army or something. I remember flying around the floor fast like hovering and fighting this character that was really strong and about the same size as me. They looked kinda like cell from dbz but blue and maybe mechanical like a toy action figure or something. Right after that I was a normal person in some kind of family mafia I was with a bunch of people and we were in a hotel or something and walked into a really big suite where somebody we knew was staying. They were dead on the ground with blood. I didn't look to closely because they weren't anyone too special to me but one of the group members I think was really sad and she ran into that room to check because I think it was her brother I was with two other people in the hallways were there was a cart of food. I grabbed a cookie and started eating it. The group was like, well might as well have what's left or something and they joined. Soon after the boss came over and we discussed the next move. Shortly after I was with my dad and sister in some big hotel lobby or something where there were many restaurants that we were choosing from. I all of a sudden new my dad was the mafia boss. I suggested an Italian place but my dad ended up just walking into this really fancy restaurant that did a mix of everything. We sat ourselves and there were other people at tables nearby that we knew and for some reason my dad threw some bread at them when they were talking. I believe police came to arrest my dad because he was the head of the mafia but it was more like an announcement and then he was just gone and I was kind of emotionless to it like, well, I knew this was gonna happen if we came here kind of thing. Last thing I remember was walking out of the restaurant.

25 Oct 2024

Dream

At a gathering or in school hallways or at the family event below. Or like a town or neighborhood in this building. I’m observing people and one guy saying he emits a vibe that gets troubled women to obsess on him. I observe it all. Not sure if my own status as a make partner or my sense if what I might bring to relations and what would be attractive. At a party or some kind of family but family like gathering. At a hotel motel. Decide to walk home. Habit. Get all the way near Augusta my present hometown I’m waking state. It’s a country road leading up hill. Not familiar in waking state. And I realize the others I gathered with will. It know I did this and wonder. So I walk back. There everyone getting ready onesies do gathered in a line a hotel or motel lobby. Saying goodbye. Everyone is black, African American, except me and maybe one other person. I note months difference to the others that I am part judge family (maybe by marriage although not clear I am married) even though white. Uncle’s, treated the sane but I felt like outsider. Later at a home w a woman. Partly my current waking state wife Jackie. Not likejycwxare married here. Feel like I have to prove myself something like that feel inadequate. I look for water glass have trouble finding it feels like a test. I have trouble locating it and feel on the spot a little. Finally the boyfriend / husband returns. He’s almost unreal handsome attractive. I feel inadequate. Weakly shake his hand he use life open to connecting w me I’m feeling less than and of course I’m untested in the woman. I ask some cause from him and maybe about business and he directs me to a draw. Somewhere else. Considering taking up a daily costal set of practices. Combining these from various disciples and teachings. Feel printed yo do thus but also nit completely free to do so. .

22 Oct 2024

Dream

I dreamed I was in Las Vegas on a vacation- only this was not the real Las Vegas. It was the typical dreamscape that I consistently find myself in when I am having dreams of Las Vegas. Like all of the other dreamscapes of cities or places or areas in my dreams, it always stays the same and is very consistent, only it is not the same as the actual location in my waking life. It was another voyage or journey dream where I was able to access the birdseye map view of the earth (and it was flat) there was an aspect of this dream that related the the gang and homeless population in the area. At one point I was in a large ford explorer with a black man driving and some white guy came into their turf and you could feel the racial tension and turmoil and see everyone on edge.the guy was peaceful and trying to apologize for something but appeared intoxicated or drunk. He said he was going home to mow his lawn or do other “white guy” stuff. Then another white man headbutted the windshield of a car and knocked himself out and the driver just drove over him whole body and I was afraid he’d get injured but the vehicle was high up enough on the tires he just drove over him without injury. Upon arriving to the area we were visiting I ended up at yet another familiar and consistent dream scape that I visit often which was a mall/movie theatre/arcade area/and event center in a multi level complex that attaches to a hotel. Right when we get there a person comes out putting big trays of delicious looking cookies and pastries that were for sale. I couldn’t resist and i got one even though I was low on cash. The person I was traveling with got some blueberry scones. Then we watched a family group come up to the same booth, and purchase some things for the grandchild who was with them. It was a grandma and grandpa and a grandchild. The interaction between the grandchild and the grandma was very sweet and emotional and brought on tears and then I realized that it was a scam and these people were actors that were paid to get more business and make people wanna buy things and I was a bit upset. The clerk had written me out hand written Ticket amount of 50 something dollars my portion of it was supposed to be 20 or something like that. I know I had a $20 bill in my hand and then there is the rest of it. I tried to set the ticket andstuff and just walk away from it so I didn’t have to pay for it and then I noticed that there was several security teams that were trying to find people who are trying to get out of paying their ticket. I was informed that you couldn’t go back to the train station, which is another typical train station, which is like the BART system in the Bay Area. But is in the dreamscape version of the area that is consistently present in dreams that involve any sort of train or shuttle style transportation. They said people were ending up dead and that no one was solving the homicides. This is indicative of mafia style structure going on in the entertainment industry and districts of this dreamscape version of Las Vegas.

17 Oct 2024

Dream

Sister was dating a highschool friend of hers. They were serious. He had cut his hair. We were all in a hotel. There was a place I couldn’t go. But they could go there.

15 Oct 2024

Dream

So I was somewhere in New York State, but I was not in New York City. Suddenly, I was aware that these bad guys knew where I was and I knew that they would come for me so I knew that I had to leave the town I was in, right away. I started asking everyone I would come across where it was someplace some town That I could go to and lay low and hang out for a few days. I said that it needed to be at least three towns away from where I was at that time. Each time I would ask a different person, I would say the same thing, I was looking for suggestions on a town I could travel to that would have at least one hotel, a bar, and a restaurant, So that I could be comfortable hanging out by myself. I knew that I had to catch my flight in New York City in a few days, but I didn’t want to spend the rest of my time in the city so I plan to hang out and whatever little town I found until it was time for me to travel to New York City to catch my flight.

15 Oct 2024

Dream

My sister and I were alone for a few days in my hometown and we were staying at this hotel. We would go out everyday visting the mall, shopping, doing stuff around town together. It was very cold outside and I was constantly cold. I remember before going out i would put on alot of makeup and alot of accessories. Lots of necklaces and earrings and i dressed up in things that werent really my style in real life and i knew that but i was enjoying trying something new. I would constantly worry about my sister as she would always want to be independent and didnt want me constantly watching over her. She disappeared once and I had a panic atack. I ran outside to go look for her and waited in the bus station but it was too late, she had already taken the bus away. I started crying and then my parents showed up. They were worried but calm, somehow their words were comforting but were also subtly making me feel very guilty. The sky was grey and the air was frosty biting at my areas of exposed skin. The air smelled of pollution and had a sourness to it. I was extremely sad that my sister left and i knew it would be a long time until i saw her again. Eventually my family all split up. My dad and sister lived alone for the time being as my mom and i were away and i lived with my boyfriend Alex in the big city. We were going to same college. And old building with a strange comfort to it. It was also surrounded by birds and black cats. Alex and i were driving to the college one morning and i heard my phone ring and it was my mom. She was frantic. My sister had had a freak out and injured my dad and then comitted suicide by slitting her throat. Mentally i was teleported there for a few seconds and i could see what happened. My dad was sitting down in the living room with deep stab wounds in his arms and stomach. His head hung therr motionless, he was alive however unconscious. I started violently trembling as i walked down the hallway to my sister’s bedroom. There on the yellowish wall was a huge splatter of blood it went almost to the ceiling. She sat slumped against the wall, her head rested on her shoulder in an unatural way. Her open eyes still staring at me after death. The wound in her neck gaped open and blood still slowly oozed down the her shirt. The air had a sour metallic sting and the atmosphere was heavy and dizzying. I panicked and cried and screamed. There was no way i was going to accept that this just happened. I was horribly affected by what i had seen and i knew i would never recover. My dad was rushed to the hospital and my sister to the funeral home. I rememberd how much i had loved her and how i would have done anything for her to keep her alive. It felt like someone took a million knives and started twisting them around in my heart. I was never the same after that. Alex and I eventually ended up going to the college and there was this party going on there. We were starting to get to know people. It was hard at first and I felt alone even though surrounded by so many. The girls kept excluding me from their group and i started befriending the boys and the tomboy girls. It actually went well and we started hanging out. Alex was on the outside of all of this as he believed that everyone at school were peasonts and he didnt want to associate himself with a lower class. I hated his arrogance however i tried to ignore it for my own benefit. One guy offered me some drugs. He offered me molly and i knew i couldnt say no. In my waking life i have done molly before and i rememberd how beautiful and comfortable and euphoric it made me feel. I wanted something to wash away the pain so bad. As the molly started coming up i could feel waves of happiness and love just washing over me. With every wave it was like the horrible things i had seen were slwoly fading, wave by wave. Alex left, apparently he had something more important to do. I was scared what his reaction would be when he came back and saw me high but also i didnt care so much. I told myself that he never had to endure such horrible things in his life like i did. Somehow, and very suddenly i had a very intense flashback and it sent my spiraling. Suddenly i saw people for what they really were. Everyone there was a snake besides maybe one or two people. I went into one of the room and I told them im not feeling ok. One girl told me she’ll go get me some water but when he tried to open the door, there was a wall behind the door, when i tried to open the window, there was nothing but wall there. Suddenly claustrophbia and paranoia started setting in. I remembered very vividly the scene with my sister and my head started spinning. Again i started screaming that it did not happen. I grabbed a random knife that was sitting on yhr table and started cutting myself. My high had turned into a maddening delusion and i wanted to rip myself out of my own skin. Voices and colors were distorted and it felt like i was in hell. The modern art designs and pictures and statues that lined the corridors suddenly were speaking to me all at once in a deafening conglomerate of madness. I passed out eventually and alex came back. I was sober now, and i told him im not doing ok but i didnt tell him about the molly as to not cause an arguement. He asked me why and i told him that mentally im very damaged by what i saw. He just stared at me coldly and shrugged. He said he has more important stuff to do and told me to go home. He then left. I felt really lonely and I tried reaching out to old friends. I really needed someone to stick with me during this time. I spoke to my cousin and we agreed to see each other in the city. We had old fights in the past but now we were mostly over them. As i was getting out of the subway station the exit was extremely narrow and claustrophobic. I noticed other people struggling to get through but they didnt complain as if it was completely normal. I got angry. I had had to deal with crap like this for so long and no one seemed to care. As i was coming out the exit i got enraged and i started pounding in it out of frustration. It ended up breaking and i was so confused because i thought it was concrete. It was actually cardboard that looked like concrete. I felt relieved and i did not feel bad at all for breaking it. Then a security gaurd came to me and started berating me in front of everyone for breaking the exit/entrance to the subway station. I didnt care that he was mad. I didnt care at all about breaking anything until my cousin came and said that I was embarassing. She said i should have just tried my best to squeeze through that exit and not break anything. She said i should pay back for repairs and to be more self aware next time. I was really embarassed and i regreted breaking it now. We then ate a fastfood together and even though i was a little mad at her we ended up having a good time. Afterwards, we went back to the college and this time i invited her to come as well. There was this party going on and there were lots of people there. Big flashing colorful lights and disco music filled the atmosphere. There was of course drugs and drinking and people fucking in the extra rooms. At this party there was this man that was trying to induce us all in a hypnotic state. Amnesiec almost. His voice guided us as we slowly lost control over our consciousness and our subconscious took control. Everyone there was seeing what they wanted to see, blissful hallucinations dreamlike trances. Everything was ethereal and extraordinary. As i was looking around i saw this girl. She was beautiful and she told me to follow her. She led me farther from the main group of people, and in that moment of pure euphoria like no drug can induce she looked at me in the eyes and we started making out. It was beautiful. We were intertwined and it felt like we had a connection beyond just our physical bodies. Her soul felt magical and gorgeous. Her hair was dark, long and flowy and she had whisps of silver and gold in it. Her lips were soft and comforting. I felt something when i kissed her that i never felt before. Suddenly i felt a hand grab me away from her. I looked and it was my dad. I felt so happy to see him but also confused as to what he was doing there and why he pulled me away from that girl. He told me to look again at the person i was just making out with. It was a boy. A random ugly boy from school that i wouldnt kiss for 100 dollars. I was horrified. I was so entranced that i couldn’t see who i was really kissing. Everything was in my head. I was terrified because i knew the trouble i would be in with alex. Alex usually didnt have a probelm with me kissing girls but of course he had a problem with me kissing boys. I would have never kissed that girl if i knew she was a boy. But i knew he would never believe me. I hated that at one point we were going to have this conversation and he would question my loyalty. Deep down however i knew that i was not guilty because i know what i saw and who i thought i was kissing. I was even more paranoid that people took pictures or filmed the whole thing and were going to send it to alex. That caused me to panic but my dad was there for me and tried to calm me down. He took me in his car and said he wanted to show me something. I noticed him. He was pale and skinny, still addicted to his drugs. Even though he seemed to look worse it also seemed that something in him chnaged after my sister took her life. He seemed to have found himself but in a twisted way. He took me and my mom in the car and we drove up this mountain. It felt so strange to be just us now. Life felt vacant without my sister. At the top of the mountain there was this cabin. Inside was this asian man. He was gentle and had kind eyes. He was a sculptor. He made statues but also little candles in all sorts of styles. He made decor and soap and even some perfume. The cabin smelled clean and fresh and modern. There was something so peaceful about that place.