4 Jul 2024
Dream
I dreamed that I lived across the street from Jason Louv (An occult teacher). I was trying to work with him in some way. Later in the dream I learned that we worked in the same nonprofit.
I had the feeling that I wanted to escape my life or change it. At times I was my age and still married to Bob, and others I was younger and just starting out.
I was sitting in my car taking shelter from a terrible storm. I think my car was white. The wind was blowing my car around while I was in it, and I felt like the world might be ending.
When the storm ended I was standing in my front yard looking across the street at Jason's house. There was an ocean in the middle of his back yard with beautiful mountains behind it. The sea was roiling and grey while the mountains were a dark green. Watching the movement of the water, I sometimes couldn't tell the difference between land and water - where one started and one ended. I was overwhelmed by its beauty. The water was deep and strong and moved as if attached to the land but separate too. I was in awe.
Storms began again and I felt besieged. Jason was playing loud music from his house because he was upset about something.
It turns out he was getting married and he came over to ask us (I was living with a group of people) to help choose the flowers for his wedding. I remember seeing the woman he was going to marry, I didn't know her, and thinking that I couldn't see them together. She was short, chubby, with short black hair and I thought, "How can he like her? They're not well suited."
He has picked some flowers from his yard and wanted to show them to us. I got a picture in my head of the flowers I wanted him to have and when I looked he had them in his hand except they were wilted. They were red poppies and I said, "Yes, like that, but alive."
He agreed with me and I was happy he'd chosen my idea. Then, as a sort of thank you, or as a gesture of connection, he wrote something on a small piece of paper and said, "This is your name". (I'm pretty sure that's what he said.). When I opened it up it looked like some kind of ancient language like Hebrew or Arimaic. That's all I can remember.
