23 Apr 2024
Dream
Figured out I was in a mental asylum or something and my life experience were mental movies. As soon as that happened, I started to become increasingly aware of a red eyes “bad” or crazy person, the third pair of eyes in the life sequence. We played different games across many lifetimes, during some I had to look for it to access the next, in others I had to hide from it. I remember Beni( a former friend from real life, that broke our almost 2 year friendship because I ate a coconut milk from his fridge without telling him) and a festival of sorts. At one point, there was a bald dude in a blue suit who told me something and hinted to a notebook for me to write on a desk in front of him. I tried to ran after him but none of the others in the room could see him and then I thought that I can waste my life trying to chase after something in my mind and lose what’s outside of myself on this path.
There was a party at some point, maybe even connected with other lives through some temporal points(idk how to call them) as in a common space between lifetimes. I remember walking with Daria B. (another real life friend, a girl that I felt perhaps a platonic connection to and still are very good friends, also she told me about her dreams and the dream really felt like more than a dream when I woke up, a liminal space perhaps ?) through some back alleys and thinking that at some point I used to walk freely on the main street but now I felt good in hiding from the “main” views(the vision belonging to the majority of people).
At the party, there was a girl resembling Ana D. ( a beautiful, I believe shy girl that was a former team member in the student’s league department but ended up not showing up at all, instead following her own path and becoming a photographer, also I didn’t talked to her that much). We danced around, had a good time together, we even started to get close physically and my pelvis area and hers were touching. Eventually I lost track of her, spent time with lots of known people from different times in my life, had some abstract missions. Found her towards the end of the party with a guy after they just finished fucking and told me that she only likes big dick guys.
During another part we hid in some vents because of some mercenaries searching for us. We fucked sometime later but as soon as I penetrated her it was so anticlimactic and her skin even started to turn into plastic, and I ejaculated almost immediately.
Also to note that while I was falling asleep, I felt some “imaginary” (more like supernatural) entities that hovered around me, communicating to me telepathically about how my thoughts create reality and of the otherworldly power I possess through my higher-self.
