28 Sep 2024
Dream
I lay back and it’s like I teleported into another world. I’m going down a road, then suddenly I’m painting the picture I was just in. Slowly I’m smoothing out lines and covering small pieces as if to make the smoothest line. And everything is dark, I feel strange but it doesn’t settle in just yet that I’m actually asleep and that I feel off even in my dream.
I walk to a friends, even though I don’t really ever see someone I actually know but I feel safe. He’s sitting on the floor holding a video game controller. I slide down to the floor I’m feeling defeated and tired like I did when I was awake except I even feel it in my sleep. But weirdly enough that strange off feeling is intensifying, I grab my friends hand, rest my head on his shoulder, place my phone in my lap face down. When he goes to start the game a surge sets off the screen goes blank but the tv is not completely off. It’s like an invisible bomb went off and that off feeling intensifies but what’s even weirder is i feel like im high and like im having a seizure except I’ve only read about these I can’t actually say I’ve ever had one. But I feel like I just got high and my brain is pulsating, not like a headache but I feel dizzy, almost like I’m high however I haven’t even smoked or taken anything that would make me feel this way, and when I try to say something I can’t. Then I tried to move and I can’t, I’m paralysed, terrified and I desperately want to ask for help but I can’t do an anything. But as soon as I get restless and wanted to be unstuck I wake up. I finally come to and realise I’m not dreaming anymore and my heart is pounding. And I’m just scared but I’m struggling to recall all of the dream. The last thought I remember having is how I miss being touched and how I want to be intimately touched again. Like I haven’t felt anything genuine in so long I’m craving that and sex.
