11 Aug 2024
Dream
I dreamt I was applying to join some sort of modelling agency, and there was a written exam to get in. The exam was being held in my own house, which was very old and in need of repair, and very sparsely furnished. The person giving the test was a lawyer, and the other three applicants were a Hollywood actress and two university graduates (I have never completed any studies after highschool, other than a handful of community college or online courses).
So I was feeling exposed in that they were all successful and seeing my shabby house, my obvious lack of material success; and apprehensive that I was about to be exposed futher as less educated.
And then the first question on the exam was nonsensical, barely-formed phrases that gave no instruction whatsoever. There were computer monitors in front of the other three applicants at their desks, but I didnt have a desk or computer, i had to perch on stool behind the actress and read her monitor over her shoulder. The lawyer in charge spoke confusingly, indicated that this was a creative writing task, then told us to begin. He started a timer, and words started flashing by on the monitors. So I just copied down as many words from the monitor as I could, knowing that I was doing the incorrect thing but angry that the instructions were so bad, plus anxious because the other three seemed to understand the task. The timer went off and the lawyer asked each person to show or read aloud their answers. They had all creatively answered the written (nonsensical) question, using the words on the monitors. The actress boasted that the written question was just how movie directors communicated, so of course she understood it easiy. I was getting increasingly angry, and by the time it was my turn to reveal my answer, i was furious. I reprimanded the lawyer for this unfair and unclear test. They all argued with me and that only made me angrier. I stood up and waved my paper at them, shouting about how I had done the only logical thing, how unfair and restrictive this test was, if only crrtain groups could even understand the task. I felt proud of myself for making a good point and showing them their unfairness, but frustrated that they didn't care and had no ability to empathise, to see another point of view.
