30 Jul 2024
Dream
I had a dream in black and white of myself talking to an audience, similarly found like a narration on a film like a Television character. I remember talking about my life currently and me experiencing strange dreams and each time I spoke about a different dream, my eyes closed and it would be acted out by shadow silhouettes on a white wall. The final time I had a dream, I woke up in colour and saw that I was wearing my regular black turtleneck, black checkered suspender trousers and black Doc Marten boots. I looked in the mirror on my white desk I was sitting at on my white chair to match. At first I saw my reflection and then my inner monologue further narrated with me not physically talking, and said “Because deep down, it didn’t matter how I appeared to people, because on the inside, I have always been a Girl of Sunshine”. And the I saw myself through the mirror wearing a yellow turtleneck, a red mini skirt, black tights and brown boots, in another dimension in outer space. The version of myself still in my room smiled at myself in space and the dream zoomed into the mirror like a camera changing focus of something and I had that dream again of my appearance changing. I began wearing a yellow turtleneck with 3/4 sleeves and a burgundy skirt with white tights and brown boots. My hair changed back to the hair colour it was when I was fourteen, a blonde balayage in the middle and bottom of my hair with dark brown on the top of my head. The blonde was similar to a honey yellow colour.
My eyes were white though, I couldn’t make out my pupils.
I fully remember that in this state of appearance, I was in out of space. Though it was full of colour, with pink, green, purple and blue colours found in the sky in space full of white stars. I had flashbacks of times I had with friends from college and I instead of sadness I saw beauty. In the background of all of this, Noel Gallagher’s High Flying Birds’ cover of the song Mind Games (originally by John Lennon) was playing in the midst of it.
I looked like a writer. I looked like a girl of sunshine in space and now I feel different from my old goth self. I was just lost in the song of Mind Games and Noel Gallagher’s voice.
And then these end credits rolled in my mind with my name being on every credit.
