8 Nov 2023
Dream
can't remember when exactly, but it was at least within the last few years of my relationship with ivan (so my early to mid twenties).
at some point, i was driving from somewhere (can't recall where to, but my driving was very sporadic and reckless), very narrowly missing other vehicles as i swerved between lanes
my luck eventually runs out; i made impact with another vehicle so intensely, that it sent me flying over a brick wall into someone's backyard. i mightve landed on my head?? unsure-- but when i tried standing up, my body practically folded in half (the middle of my spine had broken, and was currently being exposed. the only reason my upper body hadn't completely fallen off was because it was barely hanging on by a few inches of flesh)
as i come to the realization of "oh shit, i'm gonna die," my vision blurs while ominous, ambient music intensifies
cut to black, then i wake up