21 Nov 2023
Dream
I had a dream about my dad. He was cheating on my mom there and brought out his mistress. He seemed so full of love to her, he smiled and even didn't notice my presence at all. He left me with my two sisters, and my mom alone. But my mom would just tell me to let it go. She didn't seem bothered by it, that dad left us, but she was kind of have overthink and pale face at the same time. Maybe because she was thinking of the kids. We are going to a night bazaar, except dad. He was there too, but we weren't going together as family, you know. He was with his mistress. I couldn't enjoy. My mom was bringing us there for fun, but she was in flat face too, and seemed like she hid her emotions. She didn't want to cry, she didn't want us to see her sad. But the moment I saw dad with another lady, I was crying so hard. I think he noticed us, but he seemed don't care and it was like... He did it on purpose. To show that he could also be happy with her, and even happier, not only with us. The vibes of the bazaar was the same as circus ๐ช. We also saw the tents that were similar to circus. I don't know, but I only saw ferris wheel and carousel ๐ We were riding air balloon and went up to the sky, it was night right! I saw my dad and his mistress too, they were dancing and smiling happily. It was really crowded down there, with street foods too. I was watching down and cried. I couldn't stop crying. My mother and sisters were also in the hot air balloons with me, but they just stood there. With no emotions and straight view. Only me, the one who was still watching dad down there and cried. But, suddenly the way we were going up and up, the sky turns so light. Like in the morning. The weather is nice, sunny but not burnt. It was nice. So many trees down there also, but now, I didn't see my dad or anyone. Only grassland. And then, I woke up in reality and found out that I was crying in my sleep. After I woke up, I cried even harder. It felt so real