12 Oct 2024
Dream
So just before I slept. I was lost. I wanted to cry but couldn’t. And it was because my day was foggy and I had a brain fog (where I’m just in my head or on my phone most of the time) because I was missing some parts of my pasts while remembering some bad stuff that happened too. And I wanted to cry I wanted to feel something because I had my parents loss their affection on me. And my little siblings were the only ones in my life have they been giving me hugs and kisses. And I wanted to feel something, to feel loved to feel pain to feel like I’m loved. So I tried to cry to feel something. Since my parents didn’t gave me the affection I needed anymore, I kinda lost the need to cry or to feel this love in my chest. So it was hard to cry whenever I wanted to. I did cry but only a little.
Till…I had this dream. I think I had a dream before this dream, but I forgot about it already and it’s not important anymore. But this dream was. As I had a horrible time with myself, I had a dream where I was in this place as a kid. And there were other kids. And it seemed like there were these adults who were watching us? It kinda felt like an expiriment on the kids. So me and not a lot of kids just a couple were like in this HUGE circle room where the walls were high and was made of glass. I think there were adults at the glass watching us but I didn’t pay attention. And there were very few adults in this glass room with us. It seemed like there were only 4 maybe?? There might be more but I wasn’t also paying attention to that. That’s when I think something happened to the place and I think I was trapped?? But I managed to escape and I’m not sure where the other kids were. I’m pretty sure there were somewhere but I didn’t pay attention to them because I saw this- kid. They were trapped under a table with something small with them. I think it was an infant or a little dog? I do think it was a baby dog because of something that happened later on my dream. So I saw them, and I went to try and help them get out. I think there was an Earthquake because I remember seeing stuff falling from the ceiling and the ground shaking kinda. So I tried to helped them out but I think I was struggling a lot. I also think I remember having an adult come up behind me and started to say how I was so weak because of how much I was struggling and while giving me answers on how to free them but in a tone as if they saying “oh my gosh you don’t even know what your doing let me just tell you the answer if your that dumb” And I finally got the person trapped out. But I also think the adult that was talking to me was in my head maybe and not came behind me?? I dunno. But the person who was trapped was thankful that I freed them and didn’t react about the adult who talked to me so maybe it was in my head? I believe we escaped the place with the little dog and I believe something happened after that- and I may had forgot but there was a next scene and it seemed like I was in a house. I think I was now a teenager now like I am in real life. Dunno if in my dream I was a bit older. But the person I saved? We apparently build this house I’m in and now we’re living together. And now there’s this big fluffy dog with us. Seemed like it was the baby dog earlier on. And we were just living in our house together in peace. We were happy together and had a close friendship. But maybe our friendship was more or maybe it was just me in my dream. I remember there this moment where we were both sitting together doing something (I forgot what it was) and I think I managed to lucid dream here or just be able to control myself in this dream in this part only. And I may had found out I loved her and that if I did, I should make sure she knows. And at this moment I managed to control myself in my dream and moved my head to see her face. I remember her having short hair that seemed that she had cut it. It seemed like a messy haircut but it seemed to fit her. I don’t remember much now of what she looked like but I remember just staring at her and thinking how beautiful she is. Maybe she saw me staring and I went back to what I was doing or she never looked back at me and I just stopped staring. But then I lost control to my dream and a next scene came. It showed what our house looked like outside. There was a balcony that I was in and we were both outside because there was something going on. Our house at first seemed like it was floating- and maybe it was floating. But I remember seeing a thin wooden line that connects the bottom of our house to the grounds that was covered in snow. And maybe that was what was keeping the house standing, or it was a rope and our house was indeed floating and the rope was keeping the house from floating away. And just beside our house were a few other houses (I remember seeing 3 but there could be more) that were also having something below them like ours did. Me and (my friend? Lover? Our relationship was weird. We were friends but it seemed like we were in love with each other but didn’t said anything yet) friend- went to the balcony to see what was happening on the ground below us. And it seemed like our neighbors were doing the same too. It seemed like people- adults or kids?? It was foggy and there were dressed in something that made me not be able to see what they were. But they were bothering us. And annoying us because I remember feeling annoyed. But it seemed that it was common to have them come and annoy us because we were just whatever about it along with the neighbors. I think me and my friend went back inside- till a next scene came. I don’t know if me and my friend went out or we were just inside our house, but someone came. We didn’t knew who this person was and I had forgot how we found this new person, but they were a stranger to us and we didn’t trust them. And they seemed like they didn’t trust us too but they said they needed something/help? I forgot what it was, but the three of us went out to find what the stranger needed. Me and my friend had our guard up the whole time. We reached to a place where houses were never on the ground but were either floating or had something to let it stand. But I couldn’t know what it was. I guess when I was in the dream, I knew what everything was so I never questioned it. But since I obviously don’t know this world now that I’m awake, I’m unfamiliar with it. But me, my friend and this stranger went to this house in this town? City? It seemed urban like. And the door opened. An old man came in view, I don’t remember what the old man looked like now but I seemed to be familiar with him in my dream. Me and my friend were behind the stranger who was in front of the old man. We didn’t say anything till the old man spoke. He said “What are you doing here?” He asked the stranger. “I know who those two are-“ he nodded to me and my friend. (Remember I said before the scene where it’s after we escaped the place and I said there maybe was something that happened after that and then the scene of me and my friends in our built house came later on? That’s when I think something did happened when the old man said that) “but who are you?” The old man finally asked suspiciously at the stranger. But then I unfortunately woke up- It seemed that either I forgot what happened after what the old man said- or nothing didn’t happen afterwards because me waking up interrupted that.
