19 May 2024
pages.dreamInterpretation.dream
I have a lucid dream where I find myself laying naked in the bed where I was raped as a young boy. My body is covered in scars and marks. Hands that look like the hands of my perpatrator pin me down. The bed is surrounded by cameras which look like the camera my rapist used to film himself raping me. Strange men who I do not know, but who may have viewed the recordings also surround the bed. At the end of the bed stands my rapist, he is also naked. It looks like the direct aftermath of the rape. Both of us are covered in sweat. There is blood on the bed and sheets. The hands pinning me down lossen. I sit up right and ask him why he did that to me. He looks down. I ask him again, he replies that he "doesn't know". The hands loosen even more and I sit upright even more. I ask him a third time and he says "I loved you and I wanted you to stay young forever". I raise my voice and tell him that I was 11 and that he was in his 40s he replies by saying "I am sorry I really am". He leans forward and places his hands on my body, healing the scars and marks. Then he walks off into the distance.
