17 Feb 2024
Dream
I had a dream that my Nana wasn’t really my Nana. She had been “missing”, but really was in hiding and when she showed herself, she was a lot older. Smaller. She was hiding with a guy named Valentino. Nana looked a lot like Stacey’s mom, Susan….and in fact for a few moments that’s exactly who I saw standing in the closet with me. I hugged her really really tight and had a flood of emotions. Only because I was realizing that I didn’t just miss the real her, but because the Nana who’s I thought was her for a long time really wasn’t her and to think that she had missed out on so much of our lives. Our .. meaning her grandkids. I remember her balling her eyes out when she was talking to Papa about not being able to see Sophie, their cat. She said it was really hard not being able to pet her, but Nana would occasionally check on Sophie and yet, Sophie always knew it was her. She recognized her, eve from a far. Nana knew because Sophie would perk up and get excited and maybe meow every once in awhile. I kept hearing Nana say “It was so hard not being able to see the ones you love everyday.” When she said that I immediately thought, “Why come out of hiding now?” The only thing I didn’t get a chance to ask because I woke up.
