18 Feb 2024
Dream
I had the most crazy dream.
My husband, myself, and daughter were in our apartment watching tv at night. Then, in slit second someone had broken in. It was a man with dreads, but he was wearing a black hoodie. My husband seemed to know him. He pulled out his gun on my husband and that's when I took our daughter and ran to the apartment apartment lobby, which was Luckily open but dark inside. I was so frozen I struggled to know what to next... so I just stood there with our daughter in the dark lobby. Then that same guy found us there. He kept saying as he waved his gun... "how could you use those points like that." I replied by saying that I didn't know what he was talking about because my husband was the one who handled all of our finances. Then he said, "I know, and that's why he's dead." At that point I broke down crying and kept thinking about if my husband was scared to meet God. He pointed the gun at me and my daughter. I pleaded with him not shoot me because I had my baby with me. He seemed unsure of what he wanted to do, but finally left. I immediately ran back to the apartment to find my. I knew that I was going to find just his body, and preparing myself for what I would see. When I first entered, the apartment was trashed and I saw no body. I saw his legs and he was cover with a bedsheet. He was wearing, black and gray army sweats with a gray shirt. Then I lifted the bedsheet and I confirmed that it was my husband. I could see I tiny dot of read on his shirt and I knew that he had been shot in his right chest area.
His face was also bloody. To my surprise he was still alive and a little out of it. I kept telling him that we have to get him to the hospital. But my husband kept saying that he didn't want to go to the hospital. He said that he could just talk to the guy about things and that I didn't understand what game they were all apart of. He went on to mention something about points. All of a sudden we were on my parents country property outside. We went outside to find our cars, but couldn't locate the key. This is where I kept losing My daughter and then finding her again on my parents property, running in between the parked cars. For some reason, all three of us were now laying back in our apartment bed. My husband wanted go to sleep in the bed with him, even though he was still injured. When we woke up, he stayed sleep. Next thing I know my whole family, his whole family, and myself is wearing black. I just kept thinking how he was doing on the other side and if it was scary to meet God. I remember his cousin coming up to me and saying sorry.
His aunt was there too. His mom came up to me saying that I wasn't staying in this apartment. My mom agreed. My dad assumed that I would just move back with him. But then my mom walks up to his mom and says, "they need to live with you and would be best there.” As the funeral is about to begin, I started bawling and I could see that my eyes were super red. I know it's just a dream, but could feel the knot in my throat and stomach in real life... I felt what the dream version of me was feeling... that's weird. At that point I told my mom that couldn't live without my husband, but could barely make the words out. His cousin came to me and said "I know and I'm sorry" as I covered my eyes feeling the warm tears on my eyes. I don't usually remember my dreams, but this one felt more like vision and I saw every detail.
