22 Feb 2024
Dream
Last night I dreamed that I was somewhere at campus, spending time with Kyle, when I got a phone call. I answered the phone and i believe that it was mom, wanting to know how I am doing, and where I am since she is likely still in Africa. While I was talking to her, I distractedly received a text from Jack who replied to my message I sent two days ago. After that long pleasant yet embarrassing phone conversation with mom once again reminding me not to focus too much on spending time with friends as they wouldn’t really care if I am around, I started remembering a previous dream I had about the Fall 2023 semester ending. Noticing I was in a deep thought mode, Kyle said something to cheer me up, which unsurprisingly made me feel a bit better, but I still wasn’t fully fine. I decided to walk around a bit, and while I was putting on my music, I heard a familiar voice coming from the SSV 2nd floor hallway and it was Jack. Seeing Jack made me a little giddy especially when he noticed me walking and greeted me with his confident sweet smile I always admire. We chatted for what feels like an hour or two, but it was really nice. I told him about my day, including a phone call from my mom, and similar to Kyle, Jack said something to cheer me up, except, Jack encouraged me to “keep doing my best with a good attitude”. The way he said it made me not just smile wide, but also had my heart racing with assurance. After that comfort moment, we just joked around and shared a smiley stare then and there. After chatting with Jack, I realized that today was Agape so I went to look for Kyle. Once I found him with our mutual friend entering the building, I gotten a call from Mom, asking me if I am home since she is now in the U.S, so I told Kyle if it is possible that he drives me home at six. Just as the club was close to being finished, mom called me again, asking me where I am so I told her I am at a church club in campus. Once I told her, I knew I had to take the call in the hallway, since I didn’t want anybody, especially Kyle to listen. After getting yelled at for “focusing on friends” and all that in speaker, I heard one of Kyle’s friends asking me if I am okay. As we all walked to the parking lot, I got in Kyle’s car, noticing his eyes were filled with concern. When he asked, “are you good?”, I began to tear up but I nodded ‘yes’. While he was starting the car to head off to the highway, and music was playing, he noticed I was being too quiet. No longer standing the silence, he asked what was wrong so I briefly told him about my phone call. He then lowered the radio, and said everything that was saying much more than “it is going to be okay”, and hearing him speak made me feel better. I thanked him, and he nonchalantly said, “If you’re good, I’m good”, making me smile.
