Dream Of Lost Love And Friendship

I had one of the most intense dreams in my life. I dreamt that, I don't even remember how chronologically it went from one thing to another, but I'm going to tell you roughly the things that were involved in it. So, okay, the dream started with me somehow re, I mean, I have to say that I am a, I am a elementary school teacher, yeah? So, lately I've been thinking about what it means, what friendship means, since there's many children that keep their friendships forever, and there are some that are not that lucky, and I only have one friend from fifth grade, just to give you an idea. And it's incredible to have a friend from that era. Although we didn't, we didn't talk for around 15 or 16 years, when we started talking again, and reconnected our friendship, it was amazing, because we were best friends when I was a kid. So, yeah, this kid, what happened? Is this working or not? So, basically, this kid and I were very close and we were very similar when we were kids and now he's, I don't know, both men like me, but he was luckier than me when we were kids because we were very romantic, I remember this, we used to suffer a lot for girls and he, for some reason, the girl that everyone liked, liked him, yeah, and they were very shy and they almost never talked and I remember that it went on for years, yeah, so when I saw him again, the first thing I asked him was like, okay, so, that should be probably the love of your life, and he said, oh, well, I mean, around the time he left, basically, yeah, it was over and he started telling me about other girls that he actually ended up having more mature relationships with, including sex and stuff, because they were growing older and shit, but, yeah, there was always this thing that he managed to have that girl that everyone was in love with and he was so in love and he was desperate and he liked another girl, and I think that the other girl, everyone secretly liked the other girl, but she was just too unreachable, and since I was very little, everyone knew that I was, like, the guy that was in love with her, I mean, talking about that and seeing how little we were makes it weird, but my emotions were very strong, and basically, in the dream, I had to get revenge on someone for something, and I discovered that this person is basically like a hybrid between these two girls, and that this girl, I don't even remember if she had a name in the dream, this girl was basically perfect, extremely mature, extremely intelligent, I don't know, I was so pleased around her, and although I think I had to kill her at the beginning, and, like, we cleared things, like, that it was a misunderstanding or something, like, me, kill? I don't know, weird. By the way, that was a flashback in the dream, because the dream didn't start that way, but we were saying, like, can you imagine if someone, because basically, I had to shoot, and the gun was empty, because someone had shot the gun already, and we didn't know, and someone said, like, imagine if you had shot that, and we wouldn't be where we are now, because as the dream processes, we actually, the girl and I start having feelings for each other, and I don't know why she sees in me, but I know it's real, and I start feeling in love, and I haven't even remembered that in the dream, I say it out loud, I say, I haven't been in love for five years, and it feels amazing, and I feel happy, even if, the story is troubled, yeah, super troubled, because then we find out for all this time, this new hybrid girl, she's always been the girlfriend of a guy, and this guy is my friend, and my friend and I knew, and all of a sudden, like, poof, and we're like, oh, yeah, okay, so, that's my friend, so, I mean, I know that you guys are breaking up, and she says, yes, it's been like that for a year, and I asked him if he gives her permission to date her, if they break up, and he says, yeah, and, weird, very weird, and things keep happening, and yeah, I'm trying to reorganize everything as I speak, then it becomes more sci-fi, there is time travel included, because I watched Sciencegate too much, and so, probably, that was that, but, oh, yeah, I was getting closer and closer to her, and we were, she had a little sister who kind of spotted us when we were hugging and stuff, and it was, like, in the dream, a lot of time had happened, and we were seeing each other, and we were, I'm pretty sure that we were in love already, but we had to wait a little bit, because it wasn't fair to just jump in a relationship for her, especially with a friend of mine that I treasure so much, and by the way, that would have been a relationship of about 23 years, so, anyway, so, yeah, it felt so real, I remember waking up many times, because I had to pee, and I was like, no, no, no, no, and I went back into the dream, the dream slightly changed, but I was with her, and when I realized that I was running out of that stamina to go back into the dream, I started giving up, and I started saying, I know this is a dream, and it sucks, because I want to be in this dream, because this dream is amazing, and every time, the scenery changed, there was a, every time I went back to the dream, it was a sci-fi thing, there was a homicide included, there was war included, every time there was something, but the central key to the dream was the fantasy. It was that this girl and I were growing up, emotionally, together, and I, when I had to give up and wake up for good, I realized I was going to feel very sad, because it felt like years to me, and where is that girl, and where are those feelings going? They weren't real, so that is very strange, it's very strange, the dream felt like years, and now, I am again in a reality that I don't want to be in, because those dreams, those feelings were fake, and it sucks, it sucks, everything seems so uninteresting all of a sudden, and I miss so much being in that dream, being with that person that doesn't exist, this is crazy, this is the first time that something so big happens to me, not even with LSD, or absinthe, I had something like this in my life. This feels, I feel sad that I'm not, that it was all fake, it feels bad.