Dream About Loss And New Encounters

I was upset grandma died in November and then my mom in December. I was in a bazaar and met a couple. I was held in a room that had a door and two long narrow windows that had blinds that didn't fully cover the window on the left. There was only a sewer, otherwise the room was all white. I had to peek a car's license plate number but couldn't make it obvious, had 3 guys in the room of which 1 was Leo, my elementary school classmate so after i was done peeking and repeated the plate number in Finnish, he kissed me, it wasn't that good of a kiss but i loved how he put his arms around me to hug me. I was eventually alone in my room and was listening to porn but couldn't mute my phone, the only place in the room i could have any privacy in was in a corner in front of a wardrobe. I had locked the door and went in front of the wardrobe, i had a black man who praised my sucking skills and i saw us together outside as well apparently having sex. Women entered the room even though i had locked the door, they saw i was all alone and i tried distracting them by going to eat. There were so many different types of foods to choose from, salads and even Indian coconut milk and rice and chicken, my plate was already full but I really wanted to have that Indian food so I told myself I'd come get it later. I was wearing two sweaters in the spring as I was freezing, I was in my favorite secondhand shop but couldn't really find any nice jackets. I bought a second sweater and put it on but don't remember having paid for it. I met my friend from elementary school, Anne.