Dream About Bullying And Trauma

I was in my old elementary school that caused most of my trauma. Some people that have bullied me was there. Class was in my room and then I freaked out, grabbed a bat and destroyed the desks. I was about to hit them until it went back to the class but in an actual classroom, but I went through the walls of my school and went outside to this mesmerizing garden that I twirled in for a while. Then I saw my old school principal with his walkie-talkie and I went towards him in a panic because I was disobeying class rules. He asked, “how did you get outside?” I said, “I went through the little cracks.” He took out his phone and there was only 2 contacts, my brother and my mom. I chose my brother and then he reminded me of my sexual abuser by saying something and then I cried and fainted with her face glitching and the background black and green. Then I woke up with a marking on something with a dot saying, “anger; excused.” I woke up in the same classroom in my room and destroyed the desks once again with every one of my bullies backing up in fear. Then I teleported to a house party downstairs of my house with some people I recognize from my school. I kept on having flashes about my sexual abuser. I interacted with some people and as soon as something embarrassing or I didn’t like happened I went back to where I was doing the exact same motion. I tried taking a shower and once I got out. I got a flash again and purposefully reset what I was doing, it happened multiple times in the row until I was walking to my high school but it was more like a plain, fancy, college. I was late for my period 0 class and was going to my period 1 class. I walked up the stairs and because of the cramped place I fell on my chin and couldn’t easily get up, everyone was staring at me.